The old lady closes her eyes and puts her hand on top of my head.

  “Young boy, start praying!”

  “*sobs* But I don’t know how? I’ve never prayed in my life before!”

  “Just say anything you’ve been holding on to God! He’ll hear your prayer!”

  “. . .”

  That sounds easier said than done, but because of my current state of emotion, I started blurting out everything that I’ve been holding in for a long time.

  “My life. . . What was I born for? What is the purpose of my existence?”

  *Sobs sobs*

  “Ever since I was a kid, I was already living in the Underworld! And then I was brought to the orphanage. I never had any say in any of those decisions. Then, I was brought to the prison, and I escaped from it!”

  *Sobs sobs*

  “I met Diva, and then we were ambushed by the national army. Even though I hadn’t completely become accustomed to living in her bunker yet, I was already taken away. We were brought to an illegal auction, and we were bought by a kind woman, who became like a mother to us both.”

  *sobs sobs*

  “We spent five years training and indulging in her various experiments, and it made us stronger. It was finally time for us to be sent outside to do missions. Of course, it wasn’t really something I wanna do, but I wanna thank our ‘mother’ by doing these missions, yet just after the first mission, I came back home, already losing her. She was murdered cruelly, and I wasn’t there to witness it.”

  *sobs sobs*

  “Though I did meet four other strangers who seemed to have been in a similar predicament as me and Diva. We all decided to band together to go after the people who killed our mother and tried to kill us during the mission as well!”

  *sobs sobs*

  “But then we all finally found the man who orchestrated everything. It turns out every single choice that I made to reach him is something that he planned all along. I never did anything in my life that belongs to myself. My hatred towards that country was also something he planned for me.”

  *sobs sobs*

  “And then I went on these missions with five people that I considered family. At first, I felt in bliss. But eventually, as I killed more people, I felt something was wrong with me. But I don’t know what I should do??”

  *sobs sobs*

  More tears are rolling down my face. I became so frustrated with myself.

  “Dear God, if you’re listening, please help me! Please answer me! What should I do with my life?”

  *sobs sobs*

  “What is the purpose of my existence? Why was I born in this world in the first place?”

  *sobs sobs*

  . . . . .

  There was no response.

  . . . . .

  *sobs sobs*

  Yet I continue crying as my heart is longing to be heard. I stay silent this time and just keep crying.

  . . . . .

  Eissen. Eissen.

  *!*

  Someone called out my name. It was a voice, and it felt weird hearing it. It doesn’t seem to ring in my ears, but the words were etched directly into my heart. I immediately respond to the voice.

  “Yes, Lord?”

  For some reason, I called the voice as Lord, even though this is my first time hearing it.

  Follow me.

  The voice replied.

  “Yes, Lord!”

  I somehow replied immediately without a second thought. I don’t know why, but this feels like the correct direction. I can’t explain it, but there’s this strong push in my heart to answer the voice with a yes, and so I did. It felt like a gentle calling to me.

  “What should I do, Lord?”

  .

  .

  .

  God gave me direction. He told me to get out of this closed city. I greeted the old lady farewell with tears still in my eyes. She waved me goodbye and blessed me with a prayer as well, and I never saw her again for the rest of my life.

  The Lord told me to leave my current life behind completely. It feels kinda heavy when I think about abandoning the people that I consider family. Especially Diva, whom I’ve been dating this whole time. We even shared our first kiss together. My heart feels a little bit somber when I think about leaving her behind.

  But. . .

  I can’t go back now. I wanted to find purpose in my life. God has shown me and asked me to take the first step. And I’ve decided to follow Him.

  And so, after that day, I went completely missing. I left the city without a single trace at all, without informing anyone.

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  My friends completed the mission, and then they were searching for me across the entire city since I never showed up two hours later. The communication device I gave them was gone once I was out of range. They faded away on their own. This made them go into full panic, thinking that I was either knocked out, captured, or killed.

  .

  .

  .

  And so a few weeks went by, and all of my friends had quickly adjusted their lives to continue without me, and took on more missions. Diva took the role of the leader, as everyone knows that she was the one who was the closest to me and had similar leadership qualities to mine.

  One day, I approached them when they were resting in the woods, somewhere in the east. Diva was alone on a nearby river to wash her face. She was on watch duty of her own volition while the rest were sleeping.

  *!!!*

  Diva turns around. She sensed my presence, but she didn’t find me anywhere.

  *?*

  She sees a folded, small piece of paper on the ground in front of her. She bends down and picks it up.

  “Who could’ve. . .?”

  She opens it and reads.

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  Dear Diva-chan!

  This is me, Eissen! I am talking to you via this letter because the thought of talking to you directly would bring tears to my eyes, and I wouldn’t be able to properly convey the emotions that I have right now.

  Long story short, I’ve decided to quit my life in the Underworld. I feel like I never belonged there in the first place. I have kept having the feeling of directionlessness and aimlessness for as long as I have lived.

  But now I have finally found something that I genuinely wanna do.

  I wanted to bring you and everyone else on this new journey of mine. If any of you wanna come with me, please contact the number that I put down below at the end of this message.

  Diva-chan! I love you!

  I apologize for leaving without a word. But I couldn’t stand it any longer, feeling so empty in my life, pretending that I am satisfied with my current life. Diva-chan, please come with me! Though I am not gonna force you. It is your own choice after all. I’ve made my choice to leave you all, so I understand if you’re offended.

  But if you decide not to come with me, then that is fine too. So, I guess this is the end of our relationship. It is kinda impossible to have a relationship with someone who wouldn’t be there at all, right? It was fun being with you, Diva-chan! I love every single moment that we got to share just the two of us. I’ll cherish it for the rest of my life.

  Please tell everyone that I also love them!

  And I apologize as well for not writing separate letters for each of them.

  I love all of you!

  Eissen out!

  P.S. I’ll give you all one week to make your decision.

  After that, I’ll discard the phone with this number, and we’ll go our separate ways afterward.

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  And at the bottom of the text, there is a number that I wrote and warned about.

  . . . .

  Diva shed a single tear, and her face was deeply saddened after reading my letter.

  “I see. . .”

  *sobs sobs*

  Diva started crying harder, and more tears rolled down her face. She puts her hand on her mouth.

  *sobs sobs*

  “Farewell, my cold-blooded murderer boyfriend. . .”

  *Krssh*

  Diva crumples the letter and throws it into the river. She came back to the rest of the team and told them everything that I wrote.

  She has made her decision.

  .

  .

  .

  A few months later

  God gave me a last name as well, so my name now is Eissen Divalo. I have no idea what that name means, but I see no harm at all, so I just accepted my new last name.

  I have arrived in Japan. God has guided me to go here. He has led me to multiple people who needed help along the way, and so I helped all of them in any way I could.

  This still seems fresh and strange to me. God never directly appeared in front of me and did these things; it’s just that I had a certain push in my heart, telling me to go a certain direction throughout my way towards this country.

  There was an old lady who needed help with directions. I may not be exactly the right person to show her any direction, but I guided her anyway to the nearest police station while carrying her on my back. I was a bit nervous when I went inside the police station. I was so scared that they might know who I am. But everything turned out eventless, and I proceeded with my journey.

  There was also a time when a young girl lost her kitten in a park. I helped her find the cat across the park, and we found it stranded high in a tree. I summon my gun and warp above, grab her kitten quickly and carefully, and land safely on the ground with my Vein armor. I gave the kitten to the young girl, and she was crying tears of joy. She waves me goodbye and hops off away from the park, going home. That puts a smile on my face, and my heart was filled with great joy, unlike anything I’ve ever felt in my life before. This feeling is also caused by the fact that I just used my Faith power for the first time in my life to help someone in need instead of killing anyone.

  I helped many more people, and some of them even gave me food and money. This makes no sense to me. I have zero plan regarding food and money, but God provided for me anyway in the most mysterious way possible.

  I had enough money to buy clothes. I was wearing my bodysuit the whole time, but I've decided it’s time to discard it. I went into a clothing store and bought some clothes to my fancy. I’ve been inside a clothing store several times, but this might be the first time I come here to buy clothes that I am going to wear every day. It’s kinda exciting.

  I went to a nearby woods in Japan and discarded my bodysuit after I made sure nobody was around. I burned my bodysuit until there was nothing left.

  I am now wearing a long-sleeved V-neck dark green shirt with a black trim on each wrist, layered with a black fabric vest, folding back my long sleeves to my elbow, a pair of dark green trousers with a black trim, and a pair of high black boots with a square green ornament on the top of the boots.

  This feels comfortable. I also bought a pair of black-framed glasses purely for style points in the nearby eyewear store. I kinda like the way it looks after looking at myself in a mirror. I finally continue my way towards a place that I have no idea about.

  A few days later, I arrived in a city called Saitama. God led me to a certain woods near the city. It took me hours, but I finally stood in front of the woods. It is still early in the morning today.

  . . . .

  I close my eyes and put my hands together to pray.

  “Uum, Lord Jesus, what exactly am I doing here?”

  I ask God with humbleness, showing that I didn’t doubt Him, just very confused.

  *!!*

  And then everything turned white all of a sudden, and a very tall man suddenly appeared in front of me. He has a hole in both of his hands, and his face was so bright, I couldn’t see past it. He explains to me in great detail about my purpose.

  Apparently, I have been chosen to follow someone who has been appointed as a Judge. The concept of the Judges still confused me, as God didn’t really explain it in detail, only certain things that I should know about. He disappears afterward, and I open my eyes, and I am standing in front of the woods again.

  “There’s gonna be someone inside?”

  I was still confused, but I made my way inside nonetheless. After walking for a few minutes, I walked out of a bush and found someone.

  *!!!*

  I saw someone, a girl, who looked to be my age. I was both so in awe and in confusion. God really was saying the truth that I would meet someone, and I was confused as well at why this girl was here in the middle of the woods all alone.

  *!*

  She looked like she was crying, and I could see that her face was still somewhat wet. There were six of something that looked similar to gravestones in front of her.

  I smiled nonetheless, and I greeted the girl.

  “A-Ah! There really is someone here! Wow, thank you, Lord Jesus!!”

  I approach the girl and offer her a hand to stand up. She took my hand and stood up in front of me.

  “Hello! My name is Eissen Divalo. God sent me here, and He said that you are the Judge that I should be of use to!”

  I soon learn that this girl’s name is Kobayashi Mari. She is the one girl who became my new role model in my life that I kept chasing after, as well as the most important person in my life.