“That is enough for today,”
the priest said, snapping the book he had been reciting from closed,
“tomorrow I will administer an exam of what we’ve covered so far.
I will allow you to have your texts for that so that you can record
exact quotes and such. Though it will still be an impossible task to
complete successfully if you don’t know where to look for things,
so you must make sure to spend some time tonight reviewing the
sections we’ve covered so far.”
There was no a window in the
dank study, but judging by my level of hunger and exhaustion it was
still fairly early to be ending our study session. I couldn’t
remember if the dark room had ever been used prior to my father’s
death, I had always assumed it was just some sort of storage room by
the fact that I had never seen anyone go in or out of it during the
day, though I supposed that I had never had reason to take much
notice of it before.
Perhaps it had been a study
prior, it was located fairly close to the castle library and the room
smelled deeply of old books and the soot of long extinguished
candles. My father was not one to sit down with a good book or take
the time himself to research anything, if I had to guess it might
have been used sometimes by my mother. She was known to disappear in
and around the castle for hours at a time, always returning with a
contemplative look on her face.
“Is there anything wrong?”
the priest asked gently.
He had always been friendly
and kind to me, at least as much as anyone else ever had been, but
ever since my breakthrough and the methods through which that was
attained, he had softened his interactions with me and even pretended
to feign distraction when I closed my eyes for a second too long and
drifted off.
“Normally you pack up and
leave as soon as I give the go ahead.”
“It’s very early,” I
said with a wince
The woman had focused on my
upper body today, some of the blows falling on my face and jaw. I
didn’t think it was broken, but chewing was going to be an
experience for a few days. This would likely be the only time I would
find myself happy to know that liquid porridge would be my only food
for a while.
Won’t my trainer be upset
that you’re letting me slack off on my studies?” I suggested
uneasily.
The old man’s face fell
slightly, but he quickly corrected and leaned back in his chair, jaw
moving subtly in thought. He took his eyes off of mine and trained
them instead on the wall behind me as if mulling over some deep
question.
These days I felt lucky to end
my day in his presence, he was not quite as old as my father had
been, but he couldn’t have been far behind, and that elder male
presence brought a bit of comfort. Despite a boy being expected to
look up and idolize his father, I couldn’t say I fit that
expectation exactly. I was sure my father had loved me enough in his
own way, but he was someone much more interested in running a kingdom
or in his own leisure pursuits than dealing with children old enough
to be toddling around on their own. I could remember him gathering me
to his lap at night when I was very small and telling me snippets of
stories he could remember or exciting parts of battles from
historical wars, but that had ended once I had grown enough to talk
and have my own opinions.
“It is not my place to say
what is best for whatever sort of training it is you are doing with
the cleric,” he began, drawing out his words slowly as if he was
afraid they might spill out and say something he shouldn’t, “but
I can’t help but notice that you are not quite yourself as of
late.” He paused, the corner of his right lip twitching beneath his
mustache like he felt it was almost funny that he couldn’t plainly
say exactly what he meant. “Children need nourishment of the body,
mind, and soul,” he continued, “and I’m worried that you might
be lacking in those categories.”
A weak part of me wanted to
toss myself onto his lap and weep, cry out the physical and emotional
pain I was feeling, but I was certain that it would only led to a
messy outcome for myself and him. The woman had made it very clear
that a painful situation would befall me if I acted like I was
anything but grateful for the opportunity she was giving me. In fact,
I should be joyous and singing to the heavens my gratitude for the
good fortunate that was being trained and ascending towards glory in
the Great Church. What exactly what glory there was to be had and
what I was destined for exactly was not something I was allowed to
inquire about, that was all part of the grand plan in the glorious
path that was supposedly laid before me whether I walked it of my own
volition or not.
“I am following the path
laid out for me.” My voice sounded fake and practiced, but I agreed
to say the words, not say them with passion. “It is mine to walk
and any hardships only aid in my development towards the powerful
monarch and fixture of the Church I’m destined to be. My journey
should be unimpeded and left to the hands of my trainer, the divine,
and my own developing fortitude.”
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The priest made a deep,
grumbling sound in his throat and waved away my statement with his
hand. “Yes, yes, that sounds exactly like what you’ve been told
to say, but I wasn’t asking you to recite to me some line you’ve
been given. You’re barely old enough to start being considered not
quite a child, but you certainly are not a man yet. Your needs and
well being should be attended to and made sure that you are healthy
and well. I’m not sure I could twist what you look like is
happening to you as you being happy and well.”
I looked over his outfit and
the way he sat as I considered what I should do next. He wore a
simple, plain outfit of pale yellow trousers and a matching,
high-collared, long sleeved shirt along with a small silver pendant
around his neck depicting the sun. The priest had never been one to
wear official Church garments on a daily basis. Typically he dressed
like any other low level noble and blended in with the castle
populace, but since my father’s death I had only ever seen him in
the same outfit or a slight, I’m assuming approved, variation. I
could only assume that he was being pressured to assume a more pious
observation of his religious garb and I had a good guess as to whom
was applying the pressure.
The best I could give him was
a shrug in return, I simply couldn’t risk the trainer catching wind
of me saying anything that she would consider out of line. The
treatment she was giving me while she supposedly was pleased with my
progress was quite enough, I didn’t want to know what she would end
up doing if she wanted to punish me. I didn’t think she would
intentionally permanently maim or kill me, but I was pretty sure that
it wouldn’t weigh on her mind or conscious if she accidentally did.
No, it was best to let things ride as they were even if they were
absolutely miserable until there was a more clear and safe path out.
“I see,” he said with a
long huff and a shake of his head, “this stays between us my son,
but I do not like any of this business at all.” His eyes darted to
the door like he expected it to burst open at any moment. After
nothing happened following a long pause, he turned his attention back
to my face. “I am just a low level priest and not some expert in
how royal court works, but any fool could see that it appears you’ve
been usurped by the Church. Far be it from me to say that’s
necessarily a bad thing, I have devoted my life and livelihood to
serving the divine, but I have never quite seen or heard of anything
so… intense as the changes that are happening before us.”
I wanted to ask questions and
get him to expand on just what all the Church was and had to do with
what was happening to me, but I knew better and kept my mouth firmly
shut. I certainly wasn’t going to stop him from telling me what he
would say unprompted, I felt reasonably certain I couldn’t be held
at fault for that.
“I have been living here,
being the religious resource for the castle since before you were
ever born, I even oversaw your mother and father’s marriage
nuptials and blessed their union. I don’t think there’s been a
baby born in a several mile radius in and around this castle that
hasn’t had the touch of my hand for their baptism and I feel that I
have been a very pious man.” He stopped again and watched the door,
his hands fiddling with the cover of the book sitting in front of
him. “However, I do think there can be such a thing as being a bit
too pious or confusing being pious with a lust for power.”
There was a far off cry of a
young child in the castle, a wail that spoke to just how unfair the
child thought the world was horribly unfair in that moment. It was
not something out of the ordinary and usually would have gone
unnoticed as part of the background noise of living in the stone
fortress, but the sound made the priest jump in his seat and his eyes
widened. Once it dawned on him that it was just a child in the
distance his shoulders dropped once again and he let out a little
laugh.
“I perhaps say too much,”
he said, voice now barely above a whisper, “but I think there is a
lesson that all young people should eventually learn, perhaps it’s
even more important for someone such as yourself who has the throne
to look forward to. Please remember that there are people who despite
following everything to the letter of righteousness fumble on the
spirit behind the guidelines. There are dark and dangerous people in
the most glittering of cathedrals. They lurk among the truly good and
though they appear to be pillars, they are actually undermining the
very foundation they claim to glorify. It is even more dangerous when
they can’t comprehend that they are the snakes slithering through
their flocks that they warn others about.”
My eyes widened as I realized
what he was saying without directly saying it. I couldn’t imagine
anyone being out to harm a priest of the Church, but I got a chill up
my spine about what exactly might befall him if she found out. I
hoped that it would just be a removal from being my religious tutor,
though I suspected it would be much worse if the dread on his face
was anything to go by.
“I won’t say anything,”
I managed to whisper out.
He nodded his head and looked
at me gratefully, then opened the book before him once again.
“Perhaps you were right and it is a bit too early for us to wrap
up, there is so much more about the Church for you to learn and your
studies have been neglected up until recently, open your book and
study with me in contemplative silence.”
Taking
his cue, I opened the book we had been focusing on for the past few
days and turned to a random page. I half-lidded my eyes so that if
someone walked in it would look like I was deep in reading and let my
mind and body rest somewhere between sleep and waking. The aching in
my body mercifully dulled and I let my mind wander the space on the
edge of dreaming.

