The weather is nice

  Blue skies that give off a refreshing feeling

  The white clouds that can make you lost in a game of guessing it's shape

  It has been a while since we've had such nice weather

  The weather had stopped being nice in the last few years

  It was been one disaster after another when it comes to the weather

  The peaceful life that we had suddenly just ended one day

  So the weather being this calm is something to be appreciated

  So Mr Yakuza droning on for first period would have to excuse me from not paying attention

  Not that he cares about someone like me anyway

  Infact he seemed pretty distraught about the fact that I was placed in his class

  So he resigned himself to ignoring my existence completely

  It's so bad that he doesn't even care that my deskmate has been putting his head down since the beginning of the class

  Hmm...is he sick

  It's not in his usual style to be doing this

  Should I check

  I almost slapped myself at that thought

  How dare I try to touch another student

  Maybe there is something in the air

  Though most students are asleep right now so I have not too much to worry about

  But Mr Yakuza really is relentless

  He didn't let the fact that practically no one was listening to him to get to his head

  Just droned on and on

  I like to think that we have that feature in common

  A stubbornness for no reason

  I mean he's obviously mistreated by the other teachers

  And I'm obviously mistreated by the human beings

  But yet here we are

  He's teaching in a class full of elitists young jerks

  And I'm still alive

  Hah I don't have the faintest clue or idea as to why this fact is

  Why am I seated in this posh chair in this equally posh classroom

  Why do I feel the air enter my lungs

  Why does my heart still beat life into my body

  Why do I exist

  Why can't it all just end

  Why why why

  Hehe

  Everything should just end

  But the reason is more disgraceful than my absurd determination to exist

  And an encounter that completely sums it up

  It started when I woke up this morning

  As I had done every morning

  My roommates were reasonably not there

  It's a 100% not because they were a bunch of studious adults who were concerned about their future

  No their future was secure because of the family they grew up in

  It was because I was their roommate

  They took one look at me and petitioned to change rooms

  How do they do that

  It's like they could smell the difference in status between us

  Though it's not hard to guess once you've seen me at least once

  Besides I don't even qualify to have something called a 'status'

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  Hah life sucks, should I just end it

  I went through the routine for the preparation to go for class

  Honestly having an empty dorm to myself was the highlight of my entire life

  As long as I don't touch the other guy's stuff then I had more freedom in life than I've ever had outside the room

  Of course all good things must come to an end and I had to leave my room

  I locked the door with a turn of the key once

  There was no need to turn it a second time just to ensure it was properly locked

  Who would want to steal anything of mine

  Who would even want to touch something that belonged to me

  The answer is no one in this school would do that

  Even if it was just to torment me; they would rather wear gloves than use their bare hands

  Or just spill some rotten milk on my uniform

  At least they don't tear it up, there is nothing that isn't washable as long you have the right detergent for it

  Ah I'm going off track

  How pathetic of me to try and find something good out of this

  I should stop hoping and trying to find a silver lining

  There's only going to be a lot of pain in my life

  This is really a life meant to end

  Ah I've gone off track again

  Stupid stupid

  You can't seem to do anything right

  Infact you couldn't even let yourself be born right

  Just like everyone else has muttered about as you walk by

  You really are stupid

  You should just end it all

  What was the point of reminiscing again

  I tapped by finger on my desk lightly trying to remember why I started thinking

  I thought I was admiring the weather so how did i end up in a monologue

  Grr!

  Hmm what was that

  Was that from beside me

  I heard it again coming from my deskmate

  Did he..just growl at me

  And what is that smell

  Should I wake him up

  He sounds like he's having a nightmare

  No I can't touch him

  I'm too scared

  I'm reminded of what happened this morning

  To meet 2 dangerous situations in one day

  I must be cursed with bad luck

  So what happened this morning was that someone bumped into me as I was walking to drop off my dorm key

  As always I was sticking to the shadows minding my own business

  When I got distracted by another student walking weird

  He soon collapsed and was whisked off to the clinic probably

  Anyway he was one of the few people who were bothered enough to bully me

  So I paid special attention to him

  Is my torture from him coming to an end

  Unfortunately I wasn't done observing his weird condition when I was knocked down

  The fall was harsh and I let out a groan

  I landed on one of my bruises so I let out a sound against my better judgement

  "Watch where you're going" the voice sounded angry and disgusted

  Oh no he's angry

  I didn't even think about the fact that he was the one to bump into me

  It was something that could have been avoided had I paid just the slightest bit more attention

  And now he's hand is stretched out to my head

  I felt danger

  As someone who has been through a lot of pain I've developed a sense for it

  And my alarm bells were ringing

  Just like right now

  My deskmate and the random guy who bumped into me made me feel a sense of danger

  So I had 2 options

  Fight it out as someone in the right

  That's impossible

  First of all my skinny ass won't last a light pat from him

  Though he isn't muscular either; practically an average young adult

  What makes the difference is that he eats well

  Or at least the normal amount of food

  While I just eat the meager amount I have available

  Which is less than little

  Flight

  Hah that would just result in a severe beating at a discreet location later with all his friends

  So the answer was to beg like I have no human dignity

  No like I wasn't human in the first place

  "I..I'm sorry" I said on my knees with my head facing the ground

  Please don't do anything

  Please don't do anything

  Please let this situation end here

  Those thoughts kept going through my head

  "You..." He started again

  Slam!

  I slammed my head on the cool cement floor

  "I'm sorry, I won't dare to do it again" I said in a loud whisper

  Hmm was that last part always there

  But it worked anyways because his hand finally went back to his side

  "Forget it I've got somewhere to be" he snorted and hurried away

  I stayed in that position until I was sure his footsteps were gone

  I sighed in relief after lifting up my head

  Thankfully he seemed to be in a hurry

  Maybe he was going to visit the collapsed bully I just saw

  I think I remember seeing them together a few times

  Well it's not any of my business

  And it did help me escape the potential beating

  But it's best to hurry to class before he remembers how much he despises me

  And luckily there were no staff present; or I would have been scolded after he left for causing trouble

  They would go on and on about how lucky an orphan street boy was lucky to even step foot in here

  Though I completely disagree

  I think it's rather unlucky that I'm alive in the first place

  I mean out of all the people who had survived the horrible natural disasters that occurred

  I just happened to be one of them

  This isn't a movie where good things happen to unfortunate people once they enter an elitist school

  The students are worse and the teachers are greedy

  So I'm on my own

  I picked myself up and hurried to class paying more attention this time

  I noticed that the school was more lively than usual as people kept collapsing repeatedly

  I've counted like 10 students who have passed out

  And these are just from the few people who actually go early for class

  The real majority haven't left their dorms yet

  Someone even collapsed infront of me but I swiftly ignored touching the person

  I ended up slipping on the water leaking out of the girl's bathroom though

  Luckily I didn't fall down and hurried away before anyone noticed

  And made fun of me which could attract unwanted attention

  I made it to class with a plump boy ahead of me

  He must be in another classroom

  I wonder if he noticed something was up too

  I sat on my seat

  My deskmate came not too long after me

  He was walking just like the collapsed bully

  He staggered to his seat breathing heavily

  We almost made eye contact but I hurriedly looked away

  Not long after that the classroom started to fill up

  They seemed to have a new topic of discussion and from the little I could eavesdrop on; it was about the collapsing students

  Mr Yakuza came and made everyone quiet

  Soon the classroom had a lot of people sleeping

  Hmm their position seems wrong

  Wait are they actually sleeping or are they passed out

  Well it's none of my business

  What I should be concerned about is the answer to my question

  Why on earth am I so stubborn

  It's because....

  Huh, something hit my desk

  Ahhh

  I screamed as a pain erupted from my neck

  But I was soon silenced by blood filling up my throat

  There was someone biting me

  Is that why my deskmate hit my desk

  He stood up to jump me

  The light is fading

  Hehe

  Haha

  Hehe

  Is this...

  No... there's no doubt

  It's finally....hehe

  Finally it's all ending

  Hehe

  Hehe

  Hehe

  Hahaha

  ........

  The weather is nice

  I thought