Chapter 30: Contradiction

  ??: “Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Hahahahahahaha! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!”

  Jastine and Luisana took notice of the event. Nonetheless, Jastine and Luisana tilted their heads to the front and started walking. They casually skipped the black curly hair guy because they didn’t want to be involved with him. I wondered how a guy like that could still be considered a Poin and brought here.

  So, I carved different words on the floating wooden board: “How is that guy over there a Poin?”. The wooden board floated in front of Jastine. Seemingly, he also caught what happened and responded to my remark.

  Jastine: “Despite his cursing, he’s a good person himself. It’s just that he lost control over his inner thoughts.”

  Luisana: “I’ve never seen this type of guy before, this is my first time seeing one.”

  Jastine: “In order to reach here, everybody would have to have a good background in the past. And, they must be scrutinized about their nature as well as instinct.”

  Luisana: “Oh! That’s right, everyone must have to go through qualification scales in order to go here.”

  To reach this world, everyone must have a good nature. The black curly hair guy was like a contradiction of what is shown and what is concealed, it’s like reading the book to acknowledge the person.

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  I…cannot escape the reality of being embarrassed and being disturbed by other people. Constantly, I have to hear words that I don’t want to hear, speak words that I don’t want to speak, pretend to be the person that I don’t want to pretend to be. This world is simply polluted by people and their congregation which you have to pretend to fit in. Without the freedom to live, I mostly avoid social interactions, and that makes me feel better rather than conversing with people. Every time, I have to pretend to be the person that I don’t want. Frightened that if I show my true self I would lose those relationships and intimacies that I’ve built.

  Walking on the streets, there are people always talking behind my back, lurking somewhere watching and acting upon what I do. So that they could match their actions in accordance with me. If I have the notion to do something, the environs suddenly would get the waves as well. Or…

  I’m probably crazy, crazy and insane. Haaaa…Are those people really watching me? Huh? No way, they’re cunning humans knowing nothing but copying people, their nature is to disturb others for attention. All of them wouldn’t realize the dumbness in their actions until, until, no, it was too late to realize their errs. Only if they realize earlier, only if they could adjust themselves for the better, only if they have someone to tell them what they are doing is wrong, only if they have a slight realization for their actions. Only…only…

  “Release your intrusive thoughts.”

  What am I even contemplating about? What are those thoughts haunting me? Why am I surrounded with these thoughts? Fortunate given to you, unfortunate given to you. Both simultaneously abided, a protuberance started to grow relating to the two: Yin and Yang. Are my actions for the audience? Am I a movie to others? If I’ve realized the system behind it, why haven’t I gotten revealed about anything yet?

  These thoughts aren’t my desires, I don’t want to think about their life. Their lives aren’t mine! Why can’t I think about myself for once? What the fuck are you going to do if I do these actions? Hurting me and leaving me? Isolating me from you? Such casualty you airheads, or…ah…

  Then so be it.

  The future of the character such as my existence would suffer hardship. However, after my demise, everything…everything…

  Would return to its violence and justification once displayed before. Just watch what happens when that person isn’t here anymore, wanting to listen to that person but that person isn’t here anymore. Wanting to be that person and acting like that person, but the precursor isn’t here anymore. So others…would be others…

  Violence, vengeance, betrayal and annihilation. The world will fall into chaos again.

  “Release and burst your intrusive thoughts out.”

  Not physically touch or target anybody specifically, What am I scared of? Could be but does that matter if they’re not real, real? The only thing that could happen…

  Yeah, haha, look at me. Look at me! Look at me!! I’ll go outside with this attitude even if it matches somebody else. Huh? Like I said, does it really matter if…not real…could be real…incorporeal factor. Why am I still alive to this day? Why do I have hardships but not demises? So…

  O…U…T…C…O…M…E

  Could be changed.

  It’s getting boring now…

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  The place where I live is an imitation of human imagination, real life, society, and humanities. That world brings calamity to my realm. It’s better if it gets destroyed and rebuilt.

  C…H…A…N…G…I…N…G

  “Intrusive thoughts, intrusive thoughts.”

  I murmured and murmured. So I decided to just spit them out. Before I did, my eyes blackened out.

  ***

  Nevermind of the curly hair guy, although everybody went through qualification scales to get here, it was best to mind my business because sticking too long to something else wasn’t advisable. I was invisible to everyone and not remembered in their mind, I slightly got what Jastine’s suggestion was. It was probably staying in a crowded place to avoid being easily spotted. However, the five gods’ authorities and powers cannot be underestimated due to having that rank themselves, they were the people who created this world so it would be foolish to think they were that deceivable.

  ??: “Ah, what is it!? What is it now? Uh, uh, haha. HAHAHAHA!”

  The black curly hair guy hugged his abdomen while laughing nonstop, he still was saying remarkable words out loud without meaning anything specifically. With the final look, I turned away and started walking toward the city, Wopest. There wasn’t anything to keep me hearing those words I couldn’t comprehend.

  ??: “...”

  The curly hair guy turned away from the opposite walking direction, he was approaching me from the other side of the path. It seemed that way, the guy was literally approaching me with hunches. He poked his hands into the pockets of the overcoat, and he was approaching with his face nodding down leaving a shadowy area. Ultimately, it meant that he could see me.

  ??: “What is it right here? Why are you making yourself invisible? The floating board, oh…ah. I see how it is.”

  Was he talking to me? How? How did he bypass Jastine’s spell? Was he another character stronger than Jastine? I kept silent and continued walking to see his reactions. However…

  ??: “If I did something that disturbed you, please forgive me. It’s just I haven’t seen someone with a spell casting upon themselves or supernatural ability being activated out there.”

  Literally, the curly-haired guy could see me, his eyes…were dark brown. Actually, his eyes were what impressed me with its beauty; the aura emanating from the guy was dense and mysterious, he was mostly someone who gives off a dark, nonchalant and talkless atmosphere. However, he switched from his airhead talking nonsense into a polite person.

  “It’s ok, I’m not bothered. But can I ask you something?”

  I wanted to ask him the reason why he was being so rude to someone he was assaulting without pointing at anyone exactly.

  ??: “Yeah?” Once again, he was polite.

  “I wonder what was the meaning of the words you had just said. I don’t know if it points at someone specifically?”

  Being asked that query, the curly-haired guy seemed to turn off his aggression completely. When he communicated with others, he put his intrusive thoughts aside and started being friendly.

  ??: “...I was selling off my virtues.”

  His virtues? Did he mean that his virtues of a person were lost after he spoke about his intrusive thoughts?

  “Are you having problems with yourself?”

  ??: “...”

  It was like he had been caught off guard, he was astonished toward my query. The black curly-haired guy gave off a smirk, then he scraped his chin while nodding down.

  ??: “That’s…ok, ah!”

  “Excuse me? Are you alright?”

  ??: “Yeah…I’m ok, it’s just one of my awkward actions. Kindly don’t mind.”

  “Yeah…sure.”

  Jastine seemed to have noticed the thing, he shifted his gaze onto the black curly-haired guy. Luisana also did the same thing, she looked at the black curly-haired guy with astonishment. They both had a similar query, a guy from nowhere could notice and talk to Kinter who had been implanted with an isolating-type spell.

  Jastine: “Who are you really? And the biggest question here is how can you see him?”

  Jastine interrogated the black curly-haired guy with doubts on his face, the ability the black curly-haired guy must excel so he could see through Jastine’s magical spell.

  Jastine: “Rarely, a person with extraordinary power from another world will go here. It seems you’re one for sure.”

  ??: “...” The guy kept quiet.

  Given new information, other worlds also have strong characters flooding here. This was more fantasy than I thought. Well, it was common sense since the universe is horrendous so it’s no surprise to witness a developed civilization out there.

  Luisana: “If it is, then it’s just like having a random coming up, talking and then leaving like we’ve ever met. Isn’t it supposed to be like that? Should we just move on now?”

  ??: “Pardon me! I don’t know anything about this world. I happened to appear here yesterday!”

  Jastine: “Do you have evidence that you had lived here for just a day?”

  ??: “I’m absolutely sure!”

  Then, Luisana grasped Jastine’s shoulder and responded.

  Luisana: “He was genuine, Jastine. I can read a person’s mind, you know?”

  It seemed like everyone wasn’t noticing his unusual speeches earlier, so I carved words on the floating wooden board: “You guys don’t want to ask him about what he said earlier? The words he spoke were futile!”

  ??: “...”

  If I have a clue of the actions he did, then I want to try my best to help this guy.

  Luisana: “Unfortunately…”

  Jastine: “What’s the matter?”

  Luisana: “His speeches earlier were taken inspiration from his world. I cannot read his mind without context.”

  Jastine: “When a person entered this world, their memories from the previous world would be blurred, and turned into reminiscences. That was the reason why you couldn’t read him.”

  That means she couldn’t read where I was from, and I couldn’t remember either.

  Jastine: “Only if you could unveil the mist, you could read the person’s old memories.”

  Luisana: “Unfortunately, I don’t have the power to do that.”

  If that was the reason, then there would be no way for me to know what happened to me, why I got sent to this world. The name of the previous world wouldn't be unveiled, therefore, I was disappointed to hear that. However, if it was for venturing then it would be more thrilling rather than knowing everything from the first place.

  Nonetheless, it was crucial to get back my memories as soon as possible.

  “You surely don’t want to get your memories back.”

  “Huh?”

  The voice echoed in my head, the figure talked to me about the demerit of having my memories back. But rather than explain to me, the figure kept quiet for its own reasons. The figure hadn’t talked in a while, it was lurking inside my body, hearing everything. Also, it can read my mind, there’s literally no privacy for me.

  ??: “Can I come with you all?”

  Luisana and Jastine talked to each other to consider having the black curly-haired guy join the intervening period. In my opinion, if this guy had the ability that could be a supplement factor in beating the five gods, then I wouldn’t mind having him join.

  Jastine and Luisana seemed to have the answer, they both answered simultaneously.

  Jastine & Luisana: “Come!”

  Like I expected, if he could see through Jastine’s spell, that means he had proved his magical strength. I wonder about his authority if he had one. However, I expected to see him excel in magic owing to he saw through Jastine’s spell. Thus, I carved words on the floating wooden board: “I agree.”

  ??: “Thank you, guys!”

  Jastine: “Could you tell us your name for convenience?”

  Ralph: “Sure! My name is Ralph.”

  The journey continued with a new guy named Ralph, a make-up name to indemnify the lost memory of the previous name.

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