Day 1847

  I was tasked with eliminating a group of mercenaries, which consisted mostly of Believers. These mercenaries are quite famous in the underworld—the dark side of society—where many illicit activities, such as assassination, drug trafficking, slavery, human trafficking, and more, are carried out behind society's facade. However, no matter how tough or strong their Faith powers are, they never stood a chance against a girl who can manipulate time. This battle was also the first time I used Second State after awakening it a few days ago. The fall of this mercenary group during my appearance in Second State has earned me the nickname "Queen of Time." I became one of the most well-known names in the underworld.

  I also fought "God" today.

  "Congratulations. You have now made a name for yourself, Queen of Time. It is such an impressive feat, given your age. Not to mention, the world government has acknowledged your Faith power. You have been given the title of the fourth strongest Believer in the entire world within the ranks of the Ten Commandments of God. To think that what that man said back then could actually become a reality."

  "I don't care about some world government that chooses to avert its eyes from my situation. I only care about defeating you and saving Mi-chan from here."

  "I was just praising your achievement."

  ". . ."

  I didn't respond to him. Suddenly, there are 20 swords out of nowhere that appear and pierce my stomach.

  "AAAAAAAAAAAARRRGGGHHH!"

  "When the elder speaks to you, you will respond with respect!"

  "DON'T GIVE ME THAT!! YOU WANT MY RESPECT! THEN GO TO HELL AND NEVER COME BACK!! LEAVE ME AND MY FRIEND ALONE!!"

  "THEN TRY AND DEFEAT ME!!"

  "DON'T MAKE IT SOUND LIKE IT'S EASY!! ARE YOU SERIOUS? YOU ARE THE NUMBER ONE BELIEVER! HOW DO YOU EXPECT A MERE TEENAGE GIRL LIKE ME TO DO ANYTHING AGAINST YOU??"

  "SHUT UP AND JUST START ALREADY!! BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!! BREAK OPEN YOUR SHELL!! BREAK YOUR LIMIT!! ACHIEVE A STATE THAT IS EVEN HIGHER THAN BEFORE!!"

  "DON'T BE RIDICULOUS! I'M NOT THAT STRONG! WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK I AM? WHY DO YOU KEEP PUSHING ME THIS MUCH?"

  "IT'S BECAUSE YOU LET IT GO TO YOUR HEAD WHENEVER YOU LOSE! DON'T TAKE IT PERSONALLY! JUST BE A STRONGER PERSON THAN YOU ALREADY ARE!! GO ABOVE AND BEYOND!!"

  "JUST WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!"

  I shout my hardest on that last line, and it hurts my throat.

  *pant pant*

  I ran out of breath just from a few seconds shouting my frustration. It was more of an emotional lash out than a physical one.

  The swords from before disappear from my stomach. I rewind the state of my body to normal. I clench my fist as hard as I can. My fist starts glowing in blue light. I accelerate myself and run at the speed of light towards the man. I punched the man's face as hard as I could.

  *!*

  But he didn't budge. He is standing still with my fist to his face. Suddenly, my hand swings backward by itself. It bends so fast that I was sent flying towards the wall by its momentum.

  "UAAAAKKHH!!"

  I fell on the floor and I checked my right hand. It has been bent backward completely, and it hurts like hell. Without me realizing it, the man was already in front of me.

  "UGH!"

  He kicked me in the face to the floor immediately. He then puts his right foot on the back of my head.

  "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKKKKKHHHHHHH!!!"

  He steps on my head. It was abnormal, as I feel like I was pushed down by a very large boulder on my head. My head hurts so much that it stings. I feel dizzy. I also feel like my skull started to crack.

  "USE YOUR FAITH POWER TO ESCAPE! DO IT!"

  "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKKKKKHHH!!!"

  *CRACK*

  My skull breaks inwards. Some of its fragments pierce a part of my brain. The man realized what was happening. I was on the verge of immediate death. He immediately restored my body to a state before the fight began. He completely healed me.

  "That's it for today. I expect better tomorrow!" said the man as he left the room.

  "(This time, I wasn't the one to even heal myself yet he still concluded the fight. Mi-chan, . . not today. . . sorry. . .)"

  I suffered another defeat.

  Day 2104

  Today, I was sent to neutralize the entirety of an illegal military army somewhere in the west. The first thing that came to my mind is that these people are dangerous if left alone. For the first time, I felt like I could accept my assassination mission without feeling any remorse. These people are said to be terrorists who are on the verge of declaring war against a big nation in the West.

  When I arrived on-site, they were only one week away from being ready to go to war. The base of their operation was quite massive. Without them knowing, I started slicing them person by person with my clock-hand swords ready in each hand. Everyone there was busy preparing for the war, combined with my speed, killing them was so easy, like taking candy from a baby. I slide and dodge through so many people as I also take their lives away.

  After killing about 1500 of them, they just realized that they had an intruder on their base. All of them are armed with rifles and even explosives. Although I don't see even a single Believer among them, which is very strange considering that there is a high possibility that one of the Ten Commandments of God will interrupt the war if it actually happens, and they will be utterly annihilated without having any Believers to fight back. But now that I think about it, my arrival on this site is exactly the very thing that could happen to them.

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  I made it quick to kill all of them. There are almost 3000 people in total on the site. I forgot to mention that they are also firing their guns at me, though not even a single one hit me.

  After only a few minutes, I have killed but one last remaining person on the site. I tried to toy with him before ultimately killing him. The guy who is still alive when all of his comrades are dead, pleads and begs on the ground to me to spare his life. I smiled. I felt a strange rush of emotions that I never thought I could feel. I felt a sense of superiority.

  After that, I toyed with him. I keep making it look like I was going to kill him, but I let him go by giving him light scratches all over his body. It went on for a couple of minutes, but then I realized how ugly my expression was. I felt like I was no different than the "God" that has been toying with me.

  "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!"

  I immediately screamed frantically in front of him, and it startled the guy. He gets up and runs away from me as fast as he can.

  After the scream, I ran after him with my unbelievable speed. I cut his neck open, and his head flew upwards. I made sure that he dies a quick and painless death.

  I couldn't believe it. I acted the same way as that man.

  I hate it.

  I hate it.

  I hate myself.

  I hate myself.

  On the campsite, there are a lot of puddles of blood on the ground. As I walked away, I saw my own reflection on one of the puddles of blood in broad daylight. I saw myself smiling, and I had a very satisfied expression on my face.

  I began to cry. I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know what I am anymore. I don't know what I am doing anymore. I'm scared. I hate what I just did. I hate what I've become. I hate myself.

  Today, I face off against "God" again. I firmly tried to look at what kind of expression the man was making whenever we fought each other. I started the fight by simply walking towards the man as calmly as I possibly could. I clench my fist as it glows in blue light. I punched the man in the gut as hard as I could. My punch stopped as my fist was merely 1cm away from his stomach. The man grabs my wrist. He bent my arm downwards, and it broke.

  "AAAAAAAAAARRGGHH!!"

  I took three steps back as I endured the pain. Suddenly, my ribcages break open and comes out of my chest.

  "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRGGGHH!!"

  My ribcages also come out from my back. Bones are coming out of my body. Both of my shoulders have bones coming out of them, my left arm's bones break apart and come out of my hand, and it looks like a "white flower" is growing on my arm. The toes of my bones are coming out of the skin. Lastly, my spine comes out of my mouth, and I vomit blood. I looked like a human effigy.

  I fell towards the floor. It was absurdly painful. I don't know what's even the point of torturing me like this is to him, but there's something strange. I tried to focus on the man's face the whole time those things happened to me. Instead of him smiling happily as he tortured me, which was what I expected, he did not smile at all. He had this determined expression on his face. His eyes were the weirdest of all. His eyes looked like they were trying to hold on to hope. He was expecting something from me. I don't know what he wants. He never told me what he wanted. I don't know what his goal is anymore. I don't know his motive for doing all of these horrible things to me anymore.

  "We're done!"

  The man closes his eyes. He turns around and vanishes without a trace before my eyes. I rewind my body to the state before the fight.

  *pant pant*

  I don't know anymore. I tried to think of all kinds of things that he could possibly want from me. I couldn't think of anything.

  "(Mi-chan, will I even be able to save you someday?)"

  "(Will we even be able to free ourselves one day?)"

  I couldn't defeat him again today. I suffer yet another defeat.

  Day 2590

  I was tasked to destroy a small village. Without warning, I summon a giant clock-hand sword. The sword was enlarged to the size of a city. I shot the giant sword, and it hit the village. The sword immediately explodes in blinding light. Everything that got caught in the light disappears completely without a trace.

  This time, I did not bring any proof as there's nothing left, but when I reported back to the facility, they said that they checked the village through a satellite image and they saw no trace of it. Michelle's life has been prolonged for yet another day.

  I also fought Martin today.

  When the fight started, I immediately went to Second State. I have come up with a few new tricks that might be able to strike him down, though I am still not sure, because no matter what I do, my opponent is still the number one Believer in the world.

  I destroy the concept of time in the entire room. Normally, a normal human being would have instantly died due to the lack of time, but as I feared, this man is completely unaffected.

  I ‘create’ time just for my own use and shape it into thousands of my clock-hand swords, filling up that entire room, where I could barely see the wall on the other side of the room from where I stand. I figured he won't be able to tamper with my time power if time only exists for me in this room. I accelerate all of my clock-hand swords at the same time and launch them towards him.

  My clock-hand swords cannot reach him at all, as I expected, but all of those swords are just distractions. Outside the facility, high above the sky, I have formed a gigantic clock hand sword that is even bigger than the facility itself. I already calculated the angle and the timing so that my gigantic sword pierces through the facility without hitting anyone other than him alone, but not because I care about any of the people in the facility, it’s more like I am afraid of what they’re going to do to Mi-chan if I were to harm any of them.

  I launched my gigantic sword downwards while my thousands of swords were still launching towards him from all directions. The gigantic sword pierces through the room's ceiling and slices the man in two. I immediately accelerated the man's body into the future after it came into contact with my gigantic sword.

  "(I GOT YOU!!)"

  The man's body quickly became skeletal remains as they fell apart and rolled on the floor.

  ". . . I . . . won?"

  I was taken aback by what I just witnessed.

  "Mi-chan. . . I can finally. . . MI-CHAN!!"

  "UPH! HOEEEEK!!!"

  I suddenly vomit blood, a ridiculous amount of blood.

  "HOEEEEEEEEEEEKKKK!!! OHOK OHOK!!!"

  I vomited so hard that the inside of my stomach felt so excruciatingly painful. I fell on the floor. I feel like my insides are coming out of my mouth.

  *pant pant pant*

  I noticed that my intestines, part of my stomach, one of my kidneys, and other small parts of my inner organs are on the floor, along with the thick pool of blood. I realized I vomited my own organs out of my mouth. The inside of my body felt so disorganized. It feels so painful having my organs messed around. My whole body feels like it will die out in a matter of seconds.

  "(It hurts. . . I can't. . . go on. . .!)"

  I rewind my body to the state before the fight. The thick puddle of blood and my inner organs on the floor came back inside my body. The conditions of my organs have returned to normal. I also returned to normal from my Second State. I looked to my front and I saw the man was still alive and kicking.

  "(Another illusion. . .)"

  "Are you done, Queen of Time? I expected better."

  ". . ."

  "Make sure to go beyond what your current state is next time, because otherwise, you will never defeat me, for the rest of your entire life!"

  His last sentence scares me so much that I can only feel more pressured than I already am. Imagining how Michelle's and my life is going to be like this forever almost made me go crazy.

  "I have to defeat him. I have to defeat him. I have to defeat him. I have to defeat him. I have to defeat him. I have to defeat him. I have to defeat him. I have to defeat him. I have to defeat him. I have to defeat him. I have to defeat him. I have to defeat him. I have to defeat him. I HAVE TO DEFEAT HIM!!"

  I kept uttering those words as if I hadn't been trying to do that all this time. I felt like nothing would be able to make me smile anymore. There are times when I want to ditch Mi-chan to just run away far from here and continue with my life, but the fact that I'm even having that thought in my mind makes me so ashamed of myself. I began to hate myself even more than I already am.

  That day, I couldn't beat that man either. I have suffered another defeat.