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CHAPTER NINE: Lost In The Shadow Of An Endless Grace

  The

  Praetorian Hall – Captain Julianus Caepio’s Office – Continuous

  Caepio

  inhales slowly through his nose. The datapad trembles almost

  imperceptibly in his grip, only someone with Korvin’s eye would

  catch it. The Captain sets the device down with deliberate calm,

  aligning it with the neat stack of papers he hasn’t touched in

  minutes.

  Lucille’s heart thuds so

  violently she swears they all must hear it. The silence in the room

  feels like a blade held just above her throat.

  Finally, Caepio lifts his

  gaze.

  He looks at Lucille first.

  Not with anger. Not with

  disdain. But with something far colder. Something exhausted.

  Something calculating.

  “Cadet Domitian.”

  Lucille straightens

  automatically, chin low, hands clasped behind her back to hide the

  tremor in her fingers.

  Cain shifts beside her, jaw

  tight, ready to speak if she collapses. Korvin subtly angles his

  stance between the children and Caepio, protective without seeming

  insubordinate.

  Caepio studies Lucille for

  several long seconds. His dark eyes flick to the faint outline of

  bandages beneath her sleeve, the way she presses her arm into her

  torso, the lingering pallor of someone who lost blood hours ago.

  He sees it. He understands

  it. He says nothing about it.

  Instead, “Do you know,” Caepio

  begins quietly, “how many hours I spent last night reviewing

  reports?”

  Lucille’s throat bobs. “N-no, sir.”

  “Eight.” He leans back in his chair. “Eight hours. Cross-referencing every statement submitted by your instructors. Every discrepancy. Every omission.” His gaze sharpens. “Every lie.”

  Lucille’s breath snags.

  Cain frowns. Korvin’s jaw locks.

  Lucille opens her mouth, then closes it. She could tell him. About the shrine. About the offering. About the God whose presence still clings to her skin like smoke. But her voice dies in her throat.

  Korvin steps forward slightly. “Captain—”

  Caepio silences him with a raised hand. “I am speaking to the cadet.”

  Lucille’s knees weaken.

  Her mouth feels full of ash.

  “I…” she whispers, voice trembling, soft drawl coloring every word, “…I… went fer a walk.”

  Caepio stares at her as though peeling her apart piece by piece.

  “A walk,” he repeats softly. “In the cold. Alone. For hours.”

  Lucille nods once. Slow. Mechanical. Terrified.

  Cain moves before he seems to think, stepping half a pace forward. “Sir, she wasn’t in a good state. She—”

  Caepio snaps his head toward him. “Cadet Aurellius, you are not permitted to speak.”

  Cain falls silent immediately, but his hands clench.

  Korvin watches Caepio carefully. He sees something shifting behind the Captain’s eyes. Something not entirely controlled.

  Caepio rubs a hand over his face, suddenly looking older, as if last night aged him a decade.

  “Cadet Domitian,” he says, voice low, “I cannot protect you if you refuse to tell me the truth.”

  Lucille’s breath catches.

  Her fingers curl into fists. Protect? Caepio? Protect her?

  She doesn’t understand. And that makes her even more afraid.

  Caepio continues, quieter, “Because if you lie to me again…” He pauses. “…I will have no choice but to follow through with the disciplinary measures I outlined yesterday.”

  Lucille sways. Cain steps closer. Korvin tenses.

  Then Caepio sighs, long and sharp, as if the weight of the entire Academy presses against his spine. “Tell me where you went, Lucille.” A command. A plea. A verdict hanging by a thread.

  Lucille’s lips part. Her heartbeat screams. The shrine’s shadows whisper. The scar beneath her sleeve burns, faint, pulsing, like a brand.

  She whispers, soft, almost breaking:

  “…I… I prayed.”

  Caepio freezes.

  Korvin inhales sharply.

  Cain blinks.

  Lucille’s voice trembles, Southern lilt heavy with fear and exhaustion: “…I prayed… t’ them Astral gods, sir.”

  Caepio’s expression is unreadable. “Which one?”

  Lucille swallows, throat clicking. A lie flares at the back of her tongue, instinct, survival, but the scar on her arm gives a slow, pulsing throb. A reminder. A warning.

  She opens her mouth, and Korvin steps forward, voice cutting clean through the tension. “With respect, Captain, cadets are not required to disclose their private devotions. The gods they choose and the prayers they offer are sacred matters. She owes you no answer to that question.” His tone sharpens. “What she does deserve is your verdict. Have you made a decision, or is this interrogation simply meant to intimidate?”

  Cain stiffens beside

  Lucille. Caepio stares at Korvin for several long, freezing seconds,

  measuring him. The room feels thinner, air pulled tight like a wire.

  Then Caepio leans back in

  his chair, fingers tapping the armrest once… twice… before he

  snatches up his datapad again. He makes a show of glancing at the

  reports, flipping pages that are already seared into his memory.

  He sets the pad down.

  “There is substantial

  evidence,” he says slowly, “to prove Lucille Domitian did not

  murder Cadets Ilara and Maelia.”

  Lucille’s breath catches.

  Cain’s shoulders sag with sudden relief, too sudden.

  Caepio raises a hand,

  halting any reaction. His voice drops, cold and practiced. “So. You

  are free to go.”

  Lucille almost crumples

  with relief, a shaky exhale slipping from her. Cain grips her arm

  gently, grounding himself and her both.

  But Caepio isn’t

  finished.

  He steeples his fingers.

  “However,” he adds, “you would be a fool to think this is

  over.”

  Lucille blinks. “Sir?”

  “You are still a

  Domitian,” Caepio says, eyes darkening like storm clouds rolling

  over stone. “And your… connections,” his gaze flicks briefly,

  pointedly, to Cain, then to Korvin, “will only protect you for so

  long. Influence is not infinite. Even the Aurellians have limits.”

  Cain bristles. Lucille

  stares at the floor, confusion and unease churning under her ribs.

  She doesn’t understand what he means, not fully, but she’s too

  exhausted to question it.

  Caepio gestures

  dismissively. “Get out of my office.”

  Korvin nods curtly and

  places a hand between Lucille’s shoulder blades, guiding her toward

  the door. Cain keeps pace on her other side, close enough that his

  scent, worry, adrenaline, iron, presses into her senses.

  Lucille looks back once.

  Caepio is already reaching

  for his datapad again, but his jaw is tight, his knuckles white.

  As if he knows something is

  coming. As if he feels a storm forming. And Lucille, with her

  god-given scar hidden beneath her sleeve, wonders if he’s right.

  The Academy Corridors –

  Continuous

  Korvin

  leads them out of the Praetorian Hall and into the quieter corridor

  beyond, the echo of Caepio’s warning still hanging heavy in the

  air. The moment they’re out of sight of the armored giants, Cain’s

  composure shatters.

  He spins to Lucille and

  grabs both her hands, squeezing them so tightly her fingers press

  together. His relief pours off him in waves, bright, overwhelming,

  unrestrained. His breath trembles; the smile on his face is raw and

  real.

  “Lucille,” His voice

  cracks. “You’re innocent. You’re actually— I mean— you’re

  safe.” He looks like he might lift her off the floor or crush her

  to his chest, but he restrains himself by the thinnest thread. His

  eyes shine with relief he can’t hide.

  Lucille’s breath

  stutters. Her face burns instantly, violently red, heat flooding her

  cheeks and ears. She isn’t sure she can breathe. Not with Cain’s

  hands wrapped around hers like she’s something precious. Not with

  him looking at her like that.

  “I-I—yes, I’m—”

  she manages, but the words choke off, tangled in her throat. She

  stares at their joined hands because she can’t bring herself to

  look higher.

  Korvin exhales, long and

  quiet, tension loosening from his shoulders. It worked.

  Their reports, their collective pushback, everything had chipped

  away at Caepio’s hammer. He has no idea that Fulvia Aurellius

  detonated the rest of it last night, but he’s grateful all the

  same.

  Cain leans down, trying to

  catch her eyes. “You don’t… you don’t seem excited.”

  There’s worry in his voice. Panic, even. “Lucy, what’s wrong?”

  “I-I am

  excited,” she stammers, still staring at the floor. “I just—”

  “What?”

  “You’re h-holdin' my

  hands so tight,” she blurts, barely above a whisper.

  Cain freezes. His eyes

  widen. He immediately drops her hands like he’s releasing a live

  grenade. “Oh, I’m sorry! I didn’t mean...did I hurt you?”

  Lucille shakes her head

  quickly, clutching her hands to her chest, knuckles brushing her

  jacket sleeves. “No. I’m fine. Really.”

  Cain studies her fingers

  anyway, looking for bruises or fractures, as if he has any reason to

  doubt the girl whose hands are always mottled from training, split

  and raw from fists that never rest.

  “You’re sure?” he

  asks, softer now.

  Lucille nods.

  Cain exhales, shaky with

  leftover fear and relief.

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  Korvin hides a small smile.

  Not mocking, just quietly moved.

  Lucille keeps her gaze

  down, heart hammering, cheeks flaming, the ghost of Cain’s warmth

  still burning across her palms. She’s free. Alive. Unpunished.

  As the trio make their way

  down the hall, movement breaks around the far corner ahead, Renn,

  nearly jogging, and Alera Voss in front of him, cutting through the

  corridor like a storm given flesh. The theology master’s stride is

  sharp, deliberate, the kind of pace that makes lesser instructors

  flatten themselves against the wall.

  Korvin feels the shift in

  the air before she even sees them. Instinct crawls up his spine. He

  reaches out and lays a steadying hand on Lucille’s shoulder.

  Lucille stiffens.

  As soon as Voss spots

  Lucille down the hall, her pace accelerates. Renn does his best to

  keep up, but he’s practically breathless by the time the two groups

  collide in the center of the corridor.

  Voss

  closes the distance like a blade thrown with purpose.

  “Brace,” Korvin murmurs

  under his breath.

  Lucille doesn’t

  understand why at first. Then she feels

  it, an approaching storm, all holy fire and righteous fury, crackling

  in the air like static. She inhales, and the scent hits her: burning

  herbs, old stone, and the iron-weighted intensity of a devoted

  priestess on the brink.

  Cain doesn’t sense it

  until it’s almost upon them.

  “You.”

  Voss’s hand snaps out. Her fingers latch around Lucille’s wrist

  with startling strength. Lucille flinches, instinctively twisting

  back, but Voss holds firm, unyielding, unrelenting. “Let me see

  it.” Her voice is low but vibrating with urgency.

  Korvin steps forward

  immediately. “Master Voss, explain yourself—”

  But Voss isn’t listening.

  She’s already dragging Lucille’s sleeve up her arm. Wrong arm.

  Nothing.

  Her frustration flares.

  She seizes Lucille’s

  other wrist, Lucille gasps, Cain moves instinctively to intervene,

  but Korvin blocks him with one arm, shaking his head once.

  Then Voss shoves the sleeve

  up.

  The breath leaves her body.

  The fresh scar crosses

  Lucille’s forearm like a red brand, angry, clean, healed by

  something no mortal medic could claim credit for. Faint traces of

  dried blood still cling to her skin.

  Voss inhales sharply, and

  in that breath, she understands everything.

  “Oh… stars…” she

  whispers. Her grip loosens, not from lack of strength, but from

  shock. “Valroth Kyr.”

  Lucille tries to pull her

  arm back, bewildered and embarrassed under the scrutiny, but Voss

  holds her just long enough to be sure.

  Renn, breathless from

  catching up, tries to speak. “I tried to explain – (pant) - she

  prayed – (pant) - Voss wanted to confirm—”

  “Confirm?” Voss snaps,

  her voice sharp enough to cut. “This shouldn’t be possible.”

  Lucille stiffens.

  Voss notices, winces, tries

  again, softer this time, though panic still trembles beneath the

  words. “You foolish, foolish girl…” She shakes her head, not in

  anger, but in horrified disbelief. “The God of Sacrifice? Do you

  have any idea what you—” She stops abruptly, biting her tongue.

  The words hit her all at once, the memory, the knowledge of why

  Lucille was desperate enough to kneel at His shrine. Capital

  punishment. A child facing death alone. No support. No protection. No

  mercy.

  Voss exhales, visibly

  reeling. Her voice drops to barely more than a whisper. “…I’m

  sorry, child.”

  Lucille says nothing. She’s

  frozen, uncertain whether to be afraid or ashamed or simply

  exhausted.

  Cain steps closer, placing

  a protective hand on her shoulder, glaring slightly at Voss. “She

  didn’t do anything wrong.”

  Voss ignores him. Her eyes

  remain locked on the scar, on the symbol burned into flesh by an

  ancient god no sane soul invokes lightly.

  “She should not have been

  driven to this,” she murmurs. “No cadet, no child, should ever

  stand before Valroth Kyr alone.”

  Her voice trembles, not

  with fear, but with something deeper. Reverence. Awe. And dread.

  She releases Lucille’s

  arm at last, her fingers shaking. Then she looks at Korvin. “We

  need to talk,” she says gravely. “All of us.”

  Alera Voss’ Office –

  Minutes Later

  The

  three step inside Alera Voss’ office, and Lucille’s breath

  catches. The room is dense with the weight of incense and old

  parchment, every shelf sagging beneath tomes bound in cracked leather

  or etched metal. Charms hang like tiny bones from the rafters.

  Shrines glimmer in candlelight, the only lit ones belonging to Oris

  Talmarin, the

  Star-Sage, and Veidros

  the Whispering Gate.

  Their statues watch silently, a many-eyed mask and a twin-flamed

  lantern staring down like judges.

  Voss

  moves with purpose, skirts whispering sharply across the floor,

  already rifling through stacks of books. She mutters under her

  breath, pulling volumes free with decisive flicks of her hands,

  discarding some, keeping others. Her pace borders on frantic. Korvin

  and Renn follow her to the desk, tension sharpening their

  silhouettes.

  Cain

  leans down toward Lucille, voice dropping to a whisper warm against

  her ear. “Last night… that’s where you went, ain't it? To

  pray?” His brows draw tight, worry flickering like a fading candle.

  “Lucy, why? You ain't ever prayed outside class. Not once.”

  Lucille’s

  fingers instinctively curl around her sleeve, rubbing over the scar

  beneath the fabric. The flesh beneath tingles, warm, too warm, like

  an ember pressed under her skin. “I didn’t mean to,” she

  murmurs. “I just… needed air. Needed space. And then I started

  walking and—” She cuts herself off abruptly. Her jaw snaps shut.

  She almost said it.

  The

  great black beast with green eyes that she has seen over and over

  again, standing in the treeline, silent, watching. No one ever

  believes her. Every time she mentions it, she’s told wolves don’t

  roam Tennessee. That she’s imagining things. Dreaming. Lying.

  So

  she clamps her mouth shut.

  Cain

  frowns but doesn’t push further. He recognizes the way her

  shoulders tense, the way her eyes shutter. Whatever she almost said,

  she won’t say it in front of anyone else.

  Across

  the room, Voss slams a heavy tome onto her desk. Dust blooms upward

  like ash. Renn leans in at her side, Korvin standing tall behind

  them, arms folded tightly, jaw set.

  “There,”

  Voss mutters, flipping pages with quick, practiced motions. “There

  has to be something, some precedent, some record…of Valroth Kyr

  responding like this. Healing wounds. Claiming scars.” Her voice

  trembles between frustration and awe.

  Renn

  clears his throat softly. “Alera… this is unprecedented enough.

  Don’t strain yourself.”

  “Unprecedented?”

  she snaps without looking up. “Renn, people don’t pray to the God

  of Sacrifice and come back walking. They don’t wake

  up after offering blood

  at His shrine. They certainly don’t leave with scars that close in

  minutes. And they absolutely do not—” She flips a page harder,

  the paper cracking. “—do not get chosen

  unless He intends something of them.” Her eyes lift, sharp,

  burning, and land on Lucille.

  Lucille

  instinctively shrinks, clutching her opposite arm, nails digging

  against fabric.

  Cain

  steps closer, subtly placing himself between Lucille and Voss, not

  aggressively, but protectively.

  Korvin

  shifts as well, steady and deliberate. “Voss,” he warns quietly.

  “She’s been interrogated enough for one morning.”

  Voss

  exhales hard through her nose. Then, calmer, she nods. “I know,”

  she murmurs, voice softening. “I know. I’m sorry, Lucille.”

  She

  turns another page, slower this time, as though the book itself might

  break beneath her fingers. “But whatever happened last night,”

  she says, gaze flickering between the instructors, “we need to

  understand it. And quickly.”

  Lucille

  rubs the scar again beneath her sleeve, warm, insistent, almost as if

  something inside it stirs in response to its own name.

  Voss’s

  eyes soften at the sight of her, but her urgency does not falter. She

  closes the distance fast, breath tight, worry sharpening her

  features. When she reaches them, she doesn’t raise her voice, nor

  does she scold. Her tone is firm only because she’s fighting her

  own fear.

  “Lucille,” she says,

  steady but urgent. “I need you to tell me everything that happened

  last night.”

  The question hits Lucille

  like a blow. Her breath stutters. Her eyes dart away. She hesitates,

  not because she wants to hide anything, but because saying

  it aloud makes it real. And there’s a part of her,

  fragile and terrified, that wants desperately to keep those feelings

  locked away.

  Cain sees the tension in

  Voss’s posture. He sees the fear in Lucille’s eyes. And he

  understands, finally, just how serious this is.

  He steps in, voice careful,

  deliberate. “We were together in the cadet lounge for most of the

  night. Studyin'.” He rubs his neck, embarrassed. “I, uh… fell

  asleep.”

  Voss nods, but her eyes

  return to Lucille, waiting.

  Lucille swallows hard. It

  takes her a long moment before she finally speaks, voice low.

  “I… put a blanket over

  him,” she murmurs. “Then I left. I wanted fresh air. I thought…”

  Her fingers curl at her sides. “I thought I’d go to the trainin' grounds. Hittin' somethin' usually helps clear my head.” Her

  throat tightens. Her fingers curl reflexively against the edge of her

  sleeve, nails grazing the hidden scar beneath. She keeps her gaze

  lowered, fixed on the mosaic tiles at her feet as if they might offer

  her an escape.

  Voss steps closer, her tone

  soft but heavy with the weight of expectation. “But you didn’t.”

  Lucille shakes her head

  once, slowly.

  Cain watches her carefully,

  worry etched across every line of his face. “Lucy,” he murmurs,

  “just tell her. It’s okay.”

  It isn’t. Not to Lucille.

  Not when she can’t explain it, not when even thinking about it

  makes her pulse stutter.

  Lucille swallows hard. “I…

  started walking' and the further I went, the more everythin' felt…

  wrong. Too loud. Too close.” Her voice trembles, barely audible.

  “My chest hurt. My head felt like it was goin' to break. I just

  needed to breathe.”

  Korvin exchanges a glance

  with Voss, silent communication between instructors who know the

  signs of a cadet pushed too far, too fast, too young.

  Voss takes a slow breath,

  patient. “And then?”

  Lucille hesitates again.

  This is the part she fears saying aloud; the part no one ever

  believes.

  “I just walked,” she

  murmurs. “I kept walkin'. And then… I thought I heard somethin'.”

  Renn frowns. “Heard

  what?”

  Lucille’s eyes flick

  toward him, then away. Shame burns at her ears. “Footsteps. Or…

  maybe not footsteps.” She squeezes her sleeve tighter. “Somethin' heavy. Slow. Breathin'. And I felt—” Her words catch, stopping

  her.

  Voss gently prompts, “Felt

  what, Lucille?”

  Lucille closes her eyes.

  The memory pulses through her like a distant heartbeat, cold wind,

  the scent of deep forest, the earth vibrating under an unseen weight.

  “Watched,” she admits.

  “I felt watched.”

  Cain stiffens beside her.

  Renn’s brows knit. “By

  who?”

  Lucille shakes her head. “I

  don’t know. I just… followed it.”

  She doesn’t dare tell

  them the truth. About the wolf. The great black shape with green eyes

  she has mentioned before, the one adults always dismissed with

  annoyance or disbelief. She doesn’t dare mention that the exact

  same feeling, the weight, the pull, the breath of something ancient,

  had led her all the way to the Hall of Sacrifice.

  She keeps that to herself.

  “I walked without

  thinkin',” she says. “And when I finally noticed where I was… I

  was already inside the hall.”

  Voss exhales slowly,

  pressing a hand to her temple. “Lucille… that hall is one of the

  least visited on the grounds. No one wanders into it by accident.”

  Lucille’s voice cracks.

  “I didn’t mean to go there.”

  “No one ever means to,”

  Voss replies softly, but the way she says it chills the room.

  Cain moves subtly closer to

  Lucille, shoulder brushing hers, grounding her.

  Korvin steps in then, his

  voice steady. “Lucille, when you reached the shrine… what made

  you pray?”

  Lucille’s breath

  shudders. Her hand squeezes unconsciously the place on her sleeve

  where the scar sits beneath.

  “I… I don’t know,”

  she whispers. “I just...felt like I had nothing else. Like

  something inside me snapped. And everything hurt so much I… I

  didn’t think. I just… asked.” Her voice becomes a raw rasp.

  “For help. For strength. For a chance.”

  The room goes still.

  Voss, flipping slowly

  through the ancient tome, finds the passage she was looking for. When

  she looks up, her expression is pale, stricken, almost reverent.

  “Lucille,” she says

  quietly, “do you understand that Valroth Kyr does not answer

  prayers?” She places a hand flat on the open page. “He does not

  comfort the weak. He does not pity the desperate. He takes. He

  bargains. He marks those who offer what is theirs to give.”

  Her eyes flick briefly to

  Lucille’s arm, where the scar lies like a brand.

  “And yet,” Voss

  breathes, “He answered you.”

  Lucille’s heart pounds

  painfully against her ribs.

  Cain’s hand finds the

  small of her back.

  Korvin’s jaw tenses.

  Renn looks between them all

  with growing dread.

  And Voss closes the ancient

  book with a soft, heavy sound.

  “Lucille,” she says,

  voice low and unwavering, “tell me, child… exactly what

  you offered Him.”

  And the room holds its

  breath.

  Lucille finally breaks.

  Her voice trembles, the

  words torn out of her like pieces of flesh. “I… when I reached

  the shrine, I collapsed.” She squeezes her hands together so

  tightly her knuckles blanch. “There was this… sharp pain in my

  head. Like something split me open from the inside. And then...then

  it was like I was dreamin'.”

  Korvin’s eyes narrow,

  sharp as razors. Renn shifts uneasily. Voss stands utterly still,

  waiting.

  Lucille forces herself to

  continue. “I was kneelin'. I couldn’t move. The mud was draggin' me down… like quicksand. And Valroth Kyr was above me.” Her

  breath hitches. “Floatin'. Just… watchin' me drown.”

  Cain inches closer, but he

  doesn’t touch her yet.

  “In front of me,” she

  whispers, “there was a helmet. Black comb. And a knife.” She

  swallows hard, her throat dry. “And I knew… I knew the only way

  out was blood. Mine.” Her voice cracks. “So I cut my arm. And my

  blood fell onto the helmet. And the comb... it turned from black to

  red.”

  Korvin’s jaw flexes, the

  slightest twitch. Renn’s brows knot together. Voss’s lips press

  into a line as she turns back to her desk, flipping through the pages

  of the open tome with practiced urgency.

  “And the next thing I

  remember,” Lucille says, voice barely a ghost, “is wakin' up.

  With Instructors Korvin and Renn standin' over me.”

  A long, heavy silence

  hangs, thick as smoke.

  Cain finally rests a hand

  on her shoulder, gentle, grounding.

  And that’s what breaks

  her a second time.

  Lucille’s breath

  stutters, and the words rush out, unbidden and raw. “I didn’t

  just wander there.”

  Three sets of eyes snap

  toward her.

  “I—” She shakes her

  head, squeezing her eyes shut. “I followed something. Someone.”

  “Lucille,” Voss says

  softly, but there’s an edge beneath it, fear, maybe.

  “It was a wolf,”

  Lucille whispers. “A black wolf. With green eyes.” She opens her

  eyes, haunted. “It led me there. I don’t know how. I don’t know

  why. But I chased it. It guided me. Straight to the shrine.”

  Voss freezes.

  Korvin stares at her,

  really stares, like he’s reassessing her entire existence. Renn

  sucks in a sharp breath.

  Cain blinks, slow, stunned.

  “The wolf?” he murmurs. “You… you’ve seen it again?”

  She nods.

  Cain rubs his temple. He’s

  heard this before, heard her talk about seeing a wolf since

  they were children. But just like every instructor they’d ever had,

  he’d dismissed it. Because Tennessee has no wolves. Because it made

  no sense.

  But now…

  Now, in this room full of

  adults who suddenly don’t look so certain of anything…

  It feels very, very real.

  And very, very wrong.

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