"Oh is this yours" black hair and blue eyes was the feature of the voice who just said these words

  "Give it back" I spoke against my better judgement

  Normally I would have just said nothing and just nodded along

  But for the first time after multiple occasions; I responded

  I didn't mean to respond but the sight of the hairpin dangling in my face made me panic

  "What did you just say" she said it with frown

  "That's mine " I stuttered

  I couldn't back out of this because she was already pissed

  Might as well just get on with it, maybe she would throw it at me or something

  "Onee - san did you just talk back to me"

  I flinched because she only ever called me sister when she was pissed at me

  The other names constituted of slave, pushover, weak, monster, ghost

  A very colorful combination

  "No I.. just want the hairpin" I stuttered

  Why did I do that

  My sister obviously likes the hairpin so I should give it to her

  After all something that pretty isn't meant to be worn by a monster like me

  But I just can't give it up

  "It's not very pretty and you have something that's a hundred times better than this"

  "Besides it's worn out and the color is fading so....so can you please give it back"

  I said it all in a rush hoping that she would give up on it after seeing how ugly it was

  It wasn't false though because the hairpin wasn't that intricate nor pretty

  It was just a regular peony flower hairpin with no additional styles or jewels

  The pink was faded and it looked like it had aged after going through tough times

  Compared to the many jewels that I have seen her changing after each day,

  That hairpin was considered trash

  But it was my trash

  "Hmm but you have it though so it's one of my things and I just want to take something that is mine" she said dangling the hair pin

  "I'll give you something better" I said

  "But there's nothing for you to give because you have nothing, I mean what yours is mine and what's mine is mine" she said

  "I'll work more jobs at better places and buy you a better one" I'm already working multiple jobs but I'm sure I can squeeze in more

  "But I want this hairpin, won't you give it to me Onee - san"

  " I thought that you wanted Mom and Dad to like you again"

  "You promised us that you would work hard for it"

  "Are you really going to be selfish now and spoil all your hard work"

  "Mom and dad would be disappointed in you for being so selfish"

  "I'm not sure whether they would agree to take you back if I tell them about this"

  "I..I" I couldn't refute her words because they were right

  Mom and Dad would probably despise me more for being selfish about this

  And we had made so much progress after a long time of relentless hard work

  They looked at me in the eyes for a full minute

  Normally they would have sent a worker to speak to me but they actually met me face to face

  I was so happy to see them

  I can't let that all go to waste because of my selfishness

  But I also don't want to lose the hairpin

  It was a gift from my grandmother before she died

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  Those days with my parents at her house was nice

  It was peaceful before my life became this

  "So are you going to give it to me or not"

  "After all I'm not forcing you, it has always been your choice" she said while stretching out her hand for me to take the hair pin

  Choice... really

  Honestly it never felt like I had a choice from the beginning

  It was either I give it up or I don't

  And if I don't then my parents would be disappointed and they would hate me more

  They already despise me for my eyes, hair and skin

  But adding selfishness on top would be a little too much for them to tolerate

  What if they completely abandon me and I never see them again

  I should just let it go, like always

  It's just a hairpin with a little sentimental value

  Becoming selfish because of it would be uncalled for

  Yeah everything I have belongs to my sister

  I'm just a shadow with a scary face and body

  I don't deserve to wear something that was once pretty or it might break from my ugly face

  I said that but my my heart still hurt from having to give it away

  I can't let that stop me though

  I've felt this kind of hurt a lot of times before this especially after that day

  The day I found out about my disease

  It was also the day I became a shadow for my younger sister

  "You can have it" I managed to say it

  "Really" she said excitedly

  "Yes" I gave her a stiff smile

  "Well of course I could have it silly, I was just joking about asking you since it's not like it's not mine anyway"

  "After all everything you own is mine" she said sarcastically

  The hairpin was now placed in the pocket of her uniform

  My eyes never left it during that time and I finally looked away once it was firmly in her pocket

  "But there is something else though, after all you did refuse me this once"

  "If you let a mutt get too comfortable then it would bite the owner"

  "What do you think Onee - san" she said while smiling at me

  Ah I know that face; it's the same one she gets when I'm about to feel pain

  " Huh aren't you going to answer me Onee - san" she said

  "I agree" how could I not agree

  How dare I not agree

  "As expected of my smart Onee - san, now what should I educate you with now" her eyes observed the girl's bathroom we were in

  "Bring that bucket of mop water infront of you" she commanded pointing to the bucket behind me

  I dragged it over to my original position and stood while being nervous

  I hope she doesn't try to drown me in mop water

  I still have first period to go to and the teacher said the teaching material for that day would come out for the test

  I have to note it down and study it later during my job

  I don't have friends to ask for their notes in class so I would be stuck with having to read through the whole textbook as a back up plan

  And my part-time job at the restaurant today is more stressful than the other jobs

  And if I don't study then I might not be able to take my sister's test with the assurance of getting an A

  I have to let her get straight A's or she might lose her position as class rep

  "Pour it on your self" she said

  Hah it's the worst situation, I didn't bring a back up uniform today as usual because I washed all of them

  This kind of situation with my sister does happen a lot

  "Well I'm waiting Onee - san" the smile was getting sweeter meaning she was getting more annoyed

  It's better to soothe her first then look for a solution

  So I swiftly poured the whole bucket over my head

  There was a lot of dirty water in the bucket and my body was drenched from head to toe plus

  The water was disgusting and had a smell of bleach

  "Good job mutt" my sister clapped happily

  "But now the floor is disgusting, next time you should probably drink it" she looked disgusted as the bottom of her expensive shoes were coated in dirty water

  The restroom floor was flooded with dirty water and some spilled outside the door

  Infact I think I just heard someone slip

  "I'm sorry" I remember that those shoes were a gift from our parents after she got the class rep position

  Though she got it due to her high scores in the exams that I wrote

  But I was meant to give it to my sister

  After all the only reason why I'm still allowed to be part of the family is because of how much I give back

  And I love my parents

  As a filial child I'm meant to work hard to receive their love

  I'm meant to work hard and give her my everything for my sister to shine

  Then I would really be their daughter and her sister

  But I keep making mistakes by not working hard enough

  I mean passing out from overwork and nose bleeds is just an excuse at my incompetence

  Not making enough money for my sister to have an extra allowance is just laziness

  "Well as long as you understand your position" my sister replied

  "Yeah I'm meant to be your shadow and live for your happiness" I repeated it sincerely

  It was the motto by which I lived by

  "Exactly"

  "Now hurry to class soon so that my perfect attendance would be maintained" my sister said

  I also attended classes in her name, infact I don't think I exist in the school records

  My father made sure of that so that I could impersonate my sister properly

  The students are aware that I replace her though but they don't know that we're siblings

  They just think I'm her slave

  "Okay" I said

  She didn't seem like she was going to leave because she brought out her phone and started taking pictures of me snickering

  I proceeded to try to squeeze as much water as I can from my uniform while ignoring my sister

  I had to go to class soon

  I was still contemplating whether to remove my uniform to squeeze it properly when one of the toilet stalls opened forcefully

  There was a girl with her head down that was stumbling weirdly

  The girl turned to my sister who was the closest and growled

  "What are you doing" my sister became tensed glaring at her

  But the girl didn't answer

  Then she tried to lunge herself at my sister

  My sister screamed and then dodged away from the student

  "What are you staring at, come and help" my sister moved away from the student in a hurry

  She made her way close to my position

  "Huh" I was too shocked by the situation

  "Onee - San, everything you have is mine right"

  "If that's true then your life is also mine right"

  "Then I can use it however I wish right, so I hope you understand" my sister's face was ferocious with a determination to live

  The student was looking at us with red eyes and lunged at us again

  To which my sister said those words and pushed me infront of the student

  The student bit into my neck and I screamed in pain

  I tried to get it off but it was very strong

  My vision was blurry and my blood was flowing out of my wound freely

  The last clear image I saw was the hair pin on the ground and my sister's back as she ran

  I think I'm going to die

  At least I ended up giving my sister the only thing I had left

  Maybe my parents might even love me again because I was able to give everything I have

  I'm happy now though because I just realized that death feels peaceful

  I can finally end my never ending life of working

  He he

  The end is something to be embraced