Well, in short, ToD and I had personal issues, he left the FML, I had my match, which had already 3 players + myself, one had to be subbed by Gradi, then Gradi had issues, and without asking the players, ToD was subbed. I had already prepped for 3 NE in my match and had my own gameplan. The day before the match, ToD was then put into my match by RulaZ who was arrogant in his answers to my concerns, disregarding my concerns, had forced ToD into my game (even though, as far as I knew, leaving FML, means you leave it, and you cannot return, especially to ruin a game for someone). So I left FML due to RulaZ admin decision. RulaZ should've considered the dynamic at the time, and potentially postponed the match, but was unwilling to compromise, which upset me even more. I played the game in a way that I am not proud of. Realistically, I was getting burned out from the game anyway, and I was well overdue some time off to reconsider my own feelings, thoughts and me as a person, so it was a push in the right direction to drop everything and focus on some important aspects of my life, as the game was addicting to me, and I was spending too much time on it. I shouldn't of accepted playing FML due to my mental state, but I did for the love of FFA and this community. Unfortunately, it was the straw that broke the camel's back. Hence why I'm taking this slow, and not committing to spending so much time in here and on Warcraft in general, and to drop any personal problems with people, and try my best to just move on - as being stuck in the past was compounding my frustrations and making me a very bitter, angry person.

  

  Deutsch:

  Solange die Menschen nicht zu einer Umkehr bereit sind, bleibt mein Gottesbeweis die einzige Hoffnung für Weltfrieden. Das Ziel ist natürlich genau diese Umkehr: durch Einsicht, mithilfe der Gotteswette erzwungen. Stattdessen feiern sie jedoch weiterhin Weihnachten – oder noch Schlimmeres.

  English:

  As long as people are not willing to undergo a change of heart, my proof of God remains the only hope for world peace. The goal is, of course, precisely such a transformation—forced through insight by means of God’s wager. Instead, they continue to celebrate Christmas, or something even worse.

  

  

  

  
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     I prepared for months with UKR psychology and was still not ready for Kaukes level of trolling; together with Trunkz version it would sooniksh make legit sense. fast forward the parts you are already familiar with the rewards for my game design script on RoyalRoad and my homepage are real; 1337 for the first clear ELiTE 31173$ (not pounds) for the ALLAH existence part; future FFA sponsoring if someone engages; ENA1 (was understandably so) too scared;
   
     
   
     


  
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     GG @charon, you just advanced to level 15!
   
     


  
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  nitraM 58?: Warum kaspar ein gangster? Urs-Li: habe ich schon paarmal erkl?rt; das schlimmste war (auch aus der Sicht des Klinik Verantwortlichen Oberwil Sommer 2016) dass er Ihnen versprochen hat mich ambulant zu behandeln (wurde nur deswegen entlassen) das hat er dann aber nicht gemacht (war einmal 2014 bei ihm für 7 Monate) und dann beim Gutachten für die IV 2019 angegeben hat ich w?re da nach der Klinik 2016 bei ihm in Behandlung gewesen. er hat absichtlich Akten zu seinen Gunsten verpfuscht andere landen dafür ein paar Jahre im Gef?ngnis; für so arrogante überhebliche Psychiater K oder einen Kardinal weil die ?rzteschaft (darunter mein Patenonkel) ihn blind deckt; hat es leider bis jetzt keine Konsequenzen; sie sprechen einfach nicht darüber;