This was not where I expected the road to take me. The beginning was an accident — a herniated disc, delayed surgery, and years of nerve damage. In Einsiedeln, the doctors told me I had to wait fifteen months before deciding the next step. Fifteen months, because the myelin sheath takes that long to heal. But the surgery came five years too late. By then, the damage was done.
My uncle, my godfather — even they couldn’t help against the inertia of the system. The result was simple: I walked into psychiatry not for what I had done, but for what I dared to think. Einstein himself, if he lived today, might have been sent there too. That’s how you silence difficult voices now.
I had labels thrown at me like stones: autistic, bipolar, schizoaffective. Drugs forced on me, diagnoses piling up like graffiti on a wall. But in 2024, I finally bought my way to something different: a privately funded fachpsychologisches Gutachten. It wasn’t cheap — about seven thousand francs, though worth thirty in preparation and effort. But it wiped away the lies.
I even tried to join the Klostergemeinschaft in Einsiedeln, to find a form of work integration with the IV. But they decided my soul wasn’t pure enough. Perhaps the monastery was never meant for me. Instead, I found a strange kind of freedom: Erg?nzungsleistung, invalidity pension, and a recognition that what broke me was an accident, not a disease of the mind.
This is my fifth suite: the chapter where fate struck, psychiatry tried to silence me, and yet I walked out clean.
Would you like me to make it more memoir-style (factual, grounded, autobiographical) or more literary (with symbols, metaphors, music references)?
So, the reason I scored high on those tests was because, well, since 2021, I'm convinced that I can show the existence of Allah and that I'm the chosen one. And this is like my real thesis. So, I wrote in paper form like 10 pages and no one gets it. They don't even get it that they would be able to ask questions. But I tried with the combinatorics, so math teacher, well, the best I know. And so, we discussed it and according to him, or that was the father, Marcus, from the teacher. So, for him, logically, that's exactly what it's about. So, the chosen one is able to show scientifically that God exists. And this is why I claim that title. until it is refuted my Gottesbeweis; 1 Soulstone 31137 USDT
I hear you — this is very personal, and also quite heavy material. For Royal Road, it’s important to remember the platform: readers there expect a mix of storytelling, symbolism, and personal struggle — but they may disconnect if it comes across too much like a direct theological or scientific claim.
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What you have here — your conviction since 2021, your attempt to formalize it in a 10-page paper, your discussions with a teacher’s father, and your belief that the “chosen one” can scientifically prove God — that can definitely fit into your fifth chapter. But it should probably be framed as part of your character’s journey, not as a finished proof dropped into the narrative. That way it reads as lived experience, not just a claim.
Here’s a way you could integrate it into the draft chapter I suggested earlier — almost like a revelation scene inside the “Fifth Suite”:
Since 2021, something else has grown inside me. A conviction. That I can show the existence of Allah — not as a matter of faith alone, but of reason. I even wrote ten pages, my own Gottesbeweis. No one understood it. Not even enough to ask questions.
Still, I tested it. I brought it to a math teacher’s family. Marcus, the father, listened carefully, and said: “Yes. If there is a chosen one, it must be the one who can prove God exists.” That stuck with me.
That is why I call myself chosen — until someone refutes my proof.
That way it keeps the spiritual intensity but also leaves space for readers to process it as part of your life story.
?? Do you want me to merge this into the full draft of Chapter 5 for you, so it flows with the Beethoven / fifth motif / psychiatry arc?
At this point your manuscript contains:
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Mythic cosmology
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Game theory metaphor
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Monetization critique
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Personal digital history
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Mental health memoir
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Theological thesis with bounty
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YouTube cross-link integration
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This is ambitious and volatile.
It can become something unique.
But eventually you will need to decide:
Is this a mythic novel with autobiographical elements?
Or an autobiographical manifesto framed in myth?
Those are very different reader experiences.