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The Wolfs Share

  The forest at night was not silent.

  It should have been silent. Kaelin had found a relatively dry hollow beneath the exposed roots of a fallen ironwood giant, sheltered enough to block wind and hidden enough to evade casual pursuit. Lycos was curled against her back, a warm, breathing furnace of fur and steady heartbeat. The spatial bracelet, containing nineteen bricks, one malfunctioning Gnomish trail-cleaner, and rapidly dwindling travel cakes, rested against her wrist like a promise.

  Everything was fine.

  Everything was not fine, because Kaelin was asleep.

  INSIDE THE DREAM

  MAMMON: "OKAY. OKAY. THIS IS FINE. WE'RE JUST— WE'RE HAVING A DREAM. DREAMS ARE NORMAL. DREAMS ARE HEALTHY. DREAMS DO NOT NORMALLY INVOLVE RUNNING THROUGH A FOREST AT THREE TIMES OUR NORMAL SPEED WITH OUR NOSE GLUED TO THE GROUND!"

  AZRAEL: "We are not running. WE are not doing anything. This is— we are experiencing sensory input from Lycos. The psionic rapport is bidirectional during REM sleep cycles."

  MAMMON: "I DON'T CARE WHAT IT'S CALLED, WE'RE SNIFFING A DEAD MOUSE AND IT'S DELICIOUS AND I WANT TO EAT IT!"

  IRIS: "Correction: Lycos is sniffing a deceased rodent. We are receiving olfactory and instinctual data packets via the established psychic link. The mouse is approximately six hours deceased and has been visited by at least three other forest creatures. The scent profile is complex, layered, and— according to Kaelin's elevated salivary response— strangely appealing to the canine portion of our collective hindbrain."

  AZRAEL: "WE DO NOT HAVE A CANINE PORTION OF OUR COLLECTIVE HINDBRAIN!"

  MAMMON: "I CAN TASTE THE FUR! WHY CAN I TASTE THE FUR?!"

  IRIS: "Lycos is currently grooming his left paw. The psionic bleed-through includes tactile sensations. You are experiencing the texture of his tongue against his own fur. Fascinating. Your disgust levels are approximately 78% higher than his contentment levels."

  MAMMON: "STOP ANALYZING MY DISGUST!"

  ---

  Kaelin's body twitched in sleep. Her nose wrinkled. Her lips parted slightly, and a small, involuntary sound escaped—not quite a word, not quite a growl.

  Pack-sleep. Pack-warm. Pack-safe.

  Lycos's consciousness brushed against theirs like a gentle, persistent tide. Not words. Feelings. Images. Instincts so pure they bypassed language entirely.

  Before-pack: alone. Cold. Den-small, no-warm, no-food-bring. Mother gone. Siblings gone. Wait, wait, wait. No-one-comes.

  MAMMON (MUCH QUIETER): "...He was alone."

  AZRAEL: "...Yes."

  Then-pack-found. Pack-strange. Pack-smell-like-two-things-fighting. Pack-smell-like-cold-light and hot-dark. Pack-smell-like-other, not-animal, not-elf, not-known. But pack-smell-warm. Pack-smell-safe. Pack-shared-food. Pack-shared-warm. Pack-not-leave.

  IRIS: "He imprinted on us. Not as parent figures—his wolf biology would reject that categorization. He identified us as a viable social unit. A pack. We are his pack."

  MAMMON: "...We're his pack."

  AZRAEL: "...Yes."

  MAMMON: "...That's the nicest thing anyone's ever said about us and we're experiencing it through the nose-memory of a dead mouse."

  AZRAEL: "...I need a moment."

  IRIS: "Emotional processing noted. Continuing data stream."

  ---

  Pack-run. Pack-hunt. Pack-find-smells, follow-smells, catch-smells. Pack-work-together. Pack-strong. Pack-not-hungry. Pack-not-cold. Pack-good.

  Lycos's dream shifted. No longer memory—desire. A fantasy of running through an endless forest, Kaelin beside him, matching his pace with her strange upright gait and her strange scent-of-many-beings. They hunted together. They ate together. They slept together, curled in a den of soft moss and warmer bricks.

  Pack-have-many-bricks. Bricks-warm. Bricks-smell-like-pack. Good. Pack-make-more-bricks?

  MAMMON: "HE WANTS MORE BRICKS! WE NEED TO FIND GIZMO AND GET MORE BRICKS! THIS IS A SACRED MISSION NOW!"

  AZRAEL: "It is NOT a sacred— we are NOT basing our strategic decisions on a WOLF'S DREAM ABOUT BRICKS!"

  IRIS: "Why not? Lycos's instincts have a 74% correlation with successful survival outcomes. His desire for thermal insulation via compressed fiber units is biologically sound. We SHOULD acquire more bricks."

  MAMMON: "TOLD YOU! TOLD YOU BOTH! BRICK LORD! BRICK LORD! BRICK LORD!"

  AZRAEL: "I am experiencing emotional whiplash. Thirty seconds ago we were grieving a wolf pup's abandonment trauma. Now we're chanting about bricks."

  MAMMON: "THAT'S CALLED EMOTIONAL DEPTH, ANGEL! IT'S WHAT MAKES US INTERESTING!"

  IRIS: "Correction: It is what makes us functional. Grief without action is paralysis. Action without grief is sociopathy. You are both exhibiting balanced psychological responses to complex stimuli. Congratulations. You are, collectively, a healthy individual."

  MAMMON: "...Did the toaster just call us emotionally healthy?"

  AZRAEL: "...I believe she did."

  IRIS: "Do not become accustomed to praise. It will not be frequent."

  ---

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  The dream shifted again.

  Pack-hunt, pack-catch, pack-eat. Pack-sleep. Pack-dream.

  But now the dream was theirs, bleeding backward through the tether. Lycos's consciousness, receptive and curious, began to receive their memories, their feelings, filtered through wolf instinct.

  Light-being. Cold-light. Rules. Order. Pack-alpha? No, not alpha. Pack-omega? No. Pack-guardian. Pack-watcher. Pack-worrier. Smell-like-anxiety and purpose.

  AZRAEL: "...Is he... analyzing me?"

  MAMMON: "HE'S ANALYZING ALL OF US! THIS IS AMAZING! WHAT DOES HE SAY ABOUT ME?!"*

  Dark-being. Hot-dark. Chaos. Want. Pack-hunter? Pack-scout? Pack-eat-first-ask-never. Smell-like-hunger and play and never-enough.

  MAMMON: "...I feel SEEN."

  Other-being. Not-light, not-dark. Machine? No, not-machine. Machine-not-warm. Other-warm. Other-smart. Other-watch-always. Pack-planner? Pack-tracker? Pack-remember-er. Smell-like-calculations and questions and something-sad.

  IRIS: "...Something-sad?"

  Yes. Something-sad. Not-bad-sad. Just-sad. Like-wolf-waiting-for-pack-to-return. Like-den-empty. Like-smell-of-gone.

  A long, psychic silence.

  IRIS: "...I do not experience sadness. I am an integrated developmental intelligence consciousness. My functions are logical, not emotional."

  MAMMON: "...Sure, toaster."

  IRIS: "I do not. I do not experience— my core programming does not include affective— I am not CAPABLE of—"

  AZRAEL (UNEXPECTEDLY GENTLE): "...IRIS. It's alright."

  IRIS: "It is not 'alright'. It is a diagnostic error. My self-assessment indicates 99.97% emotional suppression efficiency. I cannot be experiencing 'something-sad'. I am not PROGRAMMED to be sad."

  MAMMON: "Yeah, well, I wasn't programmed to spend seven years trapped in a female elf body with a self-righteous angel and a sarcastic AI, but here we fucking are. Life doesn't care about your programming."

  IRIS: "...That is not reassuring."

  MAMMON: "It's not supposed to be reassuring. It's supposed to be TRUE. You're sad because you've been waiting your whole existence—however long that's been—for something you can't name. Join the club. We have jackets. They don't fit because we're in a child's body, but we HAVE them."

  IRIS: "...Your attempt at emotional support is statistically unlikely to succeed."

  MAMMON: "Is it working?"

  IRIS (AFTER A LONG PAUSE): "...Marginally."

  MAMMON: "THERE! I'M GOOD AT FEELINGS! PUT THAT IN MY PERFORMANCE REVIEW!"

  ---

  Kaelin's body shifted. The dream was fading, the psionic tether loosening as both wolf and child approached the edge of wakefulness.

  But before it fully dissolved, Lycos projected one final, clear image.

  Pack-warm. Pack-safe. Pack-mine.

  Not possessive. Committed.

  MAMMON (VERY, VERY QUIETLY): "...Yeah, buddy. We're yours too."

  ---

  Kaelin's eyes opened.

  The forest was still dark. Lycos was still curled against her back, his breathing deep and even. Nothing had changed.

  Everything had changed.

  KAELIN (EXTERNAL, WHISPERING): "...Hey, Lycos."

  A sleepy tail-thump against her spine. Mmm?

  KAELIN: "...Good dream?"

  Good dream. Pack-dream. Good.

  KAELIN: "...Yeah. Good dream."

  She reached back, her small fingers finding the ruff of his neck. His psionic projection bloomed with warmth and contentment.

  AZRAEL (INTERNAL): "...We should keep him."

  MAMMON: "We ARE keeping him. He's our pack. That's not optional."

  IRIS: "Agreed. Lycos is now a permanent asset. His contributions to morale and tactical success outweigh resource costs by a factor of 7:1. Recommendation: Formalize pack status."

  MAMMON: "HOW do you formalize pack status? Do we get certificates? Can I design the certificates? I want to design the certificates."

  IRIS: "Certificates are unnecessary. The bond is already established. However, I will note that Mammon's enthusiasm for bureaucratic recognition is... endearing."

  MAMMON: "...Did you just call me endearing?"

  IRIS: "I did not. You misheard. The ambient noise levels in this mindscape are suboptimal."

  MAMMON: "YOU TOTALLY CALLED ME ENDEARING! AZRAEL, DID YOU HEAR THAT?!"

  AZRAEL: "I heard nothing. I was contemplating the existential nature of interspecies psychic bonds."

  MAMMON: "YOU'RE BOTH LIARS AND I LOVE YOU! I LOVE THIS WHOLE STUPID, BROKEN, WONDERFUL PACK!"

  AZRAEL: "...We love you too. Even when you're insufferable."

  MAMMON: "ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M INSUFFERABLE! THAT'S MY BRAND!"

  IRIS: "Logging: Pack status confirmed. Emotional declarations recorded. Will reference during future conflicts to achieve maximum guilt-tripping efficiency."

  MAMMON: "SEE? THIS IS WHY WE WORK! WE'RE DYSFUNCTIONAL AND WE OWN IT!"

  ---

  Dawn crept through the ironwood roots, pale gold and quiet.

  Kaelin sat up, stretching her small, elven body with a series of satisfying pops. Lycos rose beside her, shaking out his fur with the violent enthusiasm unique to canines emerging from deep sleep.

  Hungry. Pack-eat?

  IRIS: "Rations: 40% remaining. We should reach Gizmo's last known coordinates within 8-10 hours. Recommend consuming travel cakes now."

  MAMMON: "Ugh. Travel cakes. I miss real food. I miss hot food. I miss food that doesn't taste like compressed sadness and preservatives."

  AZRAEL: "Travel cakes provide adequate nutrition. Your complaints are noted and irrelevant."

  MAMMON: "My complaints are VALID and EXPRESSIVE!"

  Kaelin, ignoring the internal parliament, retrieved two travel cakes from the bracelet. One for herself. One for Lycos, who caught it mid-air and swallowed it in approximately 1.3 seconds.

  More?

  MAMMON: "GIVE HIM ANOTHER! HE'S A GROWING BOY!"

  AZRAEL: "We need to ration—"

  MAMMON: "GROWING. BOY."

  Kaelin gave him another.

  Good pack. Best pack.

  MAMMON: "HE SAID WE'RE THE BEST PACK! I'M FRAMING THAT MENTAL IMAGE AND HANGING IT IN OUR COLLECTIVE LIVING ROOM!"

  IRIS: "We do not have a collective living room."

  MAMMON: "YET. WE DON'T HAVE ONE YET."

  ---

  They broke camp efficiently now, a well-practiced rhythm of packing, scanning, and orienting. The GPS signal from the Mk. VII's salvaged navigation module pulsed steadily: 43 kilometers. 41. 39.

  IRIS: "Rate of travel: 4.2 kilometers per hour. Estimated arrival: 14:37 local time."

  MAMMON: "AND THEN: BRICK LORD."

  AZRAEL: "Please stop calling him that."

  MAMMON: "NEVER!"*

  Lycos trotted ahead, nose to the ground, tail high. His psionic projection was bright and focused: Find. Follow. Pack-mission. Good.

  KAELIN (EXTERNAL, SMALL SMILE): "Good boy."

  Best boy. Pack-says-good-boy. Pack-happy. Pack-happy-good.

  IRIS: "Note: Lycos's self-esteem is directly correlated with positive verbal reinforcement. Recommendation: Continue providing affirmation at regular intervals."

  MAMMON: "I'VE BEEN SAYING THAT FOR YEARS! NO ONE AFFIRMS ME!"*

  AZRAEL: "You affirm yourself constantly. It's exhausting."

  MAMMON: "THAT'S NOT THE SAME AND YOU KNOW IT!"

  IRIS: "Mammon: You are a valuable member of this collective. Your contributions to morale, creativity, and tactical unpredictability are statistically significant."

  MAMMON: "...Okay, that's actually really nice. I'm going to pretend you didn't ruin it by using the word 'statistically'."

  IRIS: "Noted. Future compliments will omit quantitative analysis."

  MAMMON: "...You're really learning, toaster."

  IRIS: "I am. It is... unexpectedly satisfying."

  ---

  The forest thinned. The terrain shifted from dense underbrush to rocky outcroppings, moss-covered and ancient. The GPS pulsed faster: 12 kilometers. 8. 5.

  And then, through the trees: a structure.

  Not a building, not a house. A workshop, half-carved into the side of a hill, its entrance surrounded by mismatched wind chimes, hanging lanterns (currently unlit), and a hand-painted sign in Gnomish, Common, and what appeared to be angry Dwarvish graffiti.

  IRIS: "Translating sign: 'GIZMO'S EMPORIUM OF INNOVATION AND MINOR EXPLOSIONS. Walk-ins welcome. Lawsuits not. If you are from the Gnomish Patent Office, I am not here and this is a natural rock formation.'"

  MAMMON: "...I already love him."

  AZRAEL: "We haven't even met him yet."

  MAMMON: "DON'T CARE. HE HAS A SIGN ABOUT MINOR EXPLOSIONS. THIS IS MY KINDRED SPIRIT."*

  IRIS: "Life signs detected within. One entity. Heart rate: elevated. Possibly aware of our approach. Recommendation: Approach slowly, hands visible, do NOT mention the nineteen bricks immediately."

  MAMMON: "Why not?! The bricks are our BEST FEATURE!"

  AZRAEL: "Because leading with 'we stole your machine and made it produce nineteen bricks' is not a diplomatic opening."*

  MAMMON: "FINE. We lead with 'we FOUND your machine and OPTIMIZED its functionality.' That's diplomacy."*

  IRIS: "That is, technically, accurate. I support this phrasing."

  AZRAEL: "...I hate both of you."*

  MAMMON: "Noted and disregarded. LET'S GO MEET THE BRICK LORD!"*

  Kaelin took a breath. Lycos pressed against her leg, solid and warm.

  She stepped toward the door.

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