Sam and Kyle ran as best they could with Trish's arms draped over
their shoulders and breath scraping in their throats. Their boots
slapped concrete as they burst out of the parking garage’s shadow
and into the bleached openness beyond the mall. Behind them, the
garage swallowed sound in a way that made every imagined footstep
louder. Every time Kyle’s mind reached back for the bandits--faces,
weapons, the moment Trish had --his body tried to
sprint faster than his legs could manage.
Trish was between them. Sam had one of
Trish’s arms hooked over her shoulder; Kyle had the other, his hand
clamped around Trish’s wrist because it was the most stable grip he
could get without twisting her. Trish’s feet moved, but half a beat
late, like the instruction to step had to travel through fog before
it reached her muscles.
“Eyes up,” Sam said, low. Not
gentle. Functional. The kind of tone she used when she needed
obedience more than reassurance.
Trish’s head stayed down. The blood in
her hair had dried in ugly clumps and was the only evidence
suggesting that she had been hurt. Now it stuck to her temples. Her
lips looked pale. She didn’t look at either of them--didn’t even
glance sideways as if checking they were still there. Kyle could feel
her weight sagging toward him every few steps, an unconscious drift,
like a sleepwalker leaning toward the closest wall.
Kyle kept his gaze moving: the mall’s
outer storefronts, the lanes of abandoned cars, the broad avenues
that led away from consumer sprawl and into the skeletal grid of the
city. The End had done its work months ago and now the mall was just
one more carcass. But the bandits were still alive and Kyle knew that
they could be watching. He couldn’t forget that. He couldn’t
ignore the boredom some felt after months of survival. He’d been
trained by a safe world to assume people didn’t do things without
reason. Now reason had become thin. Now reason could be: because
you’re there.
They moved north.
The edge of the residential district
fell away behind them--fences, stucco walls, collapsed gates, the
geometry of suburbia broken and left in place like a joke only nobody
was laughing. Ahead lay a scrubland valley, a shallow basin of dry
brush and pale dirt between the last houses and the distant business
park. In a normal year it would have been a nuisance of sun and dust.
Today it was open exposure.
Kyle’s shoulders tightened as they
stepped down into it.
Scrubland meant sightlines. It meant
nowhere to hide if someone decided to follow. It meant being a figure
moving against a blank background. He listened hard. No engines. No
voices. No gunfire. Only their own breathing, and the occasional
rattle of Trish’s boots catching on uneven ground.
Trish made a noise--small, involuntary.
Kyle glanced at her face and got nothing back. Her eyes were
half-lidded, pupils unfocused, the expression of someone who had
burned through something essential and hadn’t recovered enough to
pretend otherwise.
He couldn’t stop thinking about what
she’d done. The “explosion” had been the only word his mind
offered, and it felt wrong because it made it sound like fireworks.
What had happened was uglier: a flash of light, a pressure shift that
made his ears ring, a sudden violence that turned the bandits’
confidence into confusion. Kyle had watched it happen without
understanding the mechanism, only the result.
The world had rules. Kyle’s whole life
had been built on that belief--systems, inputs, outputs, failure
modes. But the rules had been changing since The End, and storms that
rewrote landscapes were only the most obvious proof.
They climbed the far side of the valley,
up toward the business district’s low silhouettes.
The first drop hit Kyle’s cheek like a
thrown pebble. Then another. Then a scatter of them, cold enough to
raise gooseflesh through his damp shirt.
He looked up.
A thick bank of cloud had rolled in
faster than weather should have allowed--gray, heavy, layered in a
way that made the sky feel close. The light flattened. The distance
lost color. The air smelled like wet dust.
Kyle’s gut tightened.
Storm.
Was it storm or a ?
The ones with lightning so constant it announced itself like a
warning siren. The ones that made people crawl underground and pray
the land would still be the same when they emerged.
His eyes searched for flicker in the
clouds. Any pale vein of electricity. Any sudden gust that meant the
world was about to start throwing knives of wind.
Nothing.
The rain thickened into a steady pour.
It came straight down without drama, more like a broken pipe than a
sky’s fury.
Kyle forced himself to breathe slower.
He listened for thunder and heard only rain and their own footfalls,
softened now as the dirt turned to mud.
“Is this one of...those?” Sam asked,
not looking up. Her voice stayed even, but Kyle caught the thin edge
under it.
Kyle swallowed. “I don’t--” He
stopped, because the honest answer was useless. He tried again. “If
it was, we’d know. There’d be… there’d be lightning.”
Sam made a short sound that might have
been agreement. Might have been her refusing to give the sky credit
for restraint.
The rain kept coming, thick enough that
the scrubland blurred at the edges. Visibility shortened. The
business district ahead became a dark smear that occasionally
resolved into a warehouse wall or a line of office buildings. Water
ran off Kyle’s hair into his eyes. He blinked hard and kept moving.
Trish sagged harder. Between them, she
became dead weight--still walking, but barely, like her legs were
obeying the last instruction they’d received and nothing else.
Kyle adjusted his grip, his fingers
slipping on her wet skin. He hated how intimate it felt, touching
someone he barely knew, holding her up like this. It made his anxiety
sharpen. He was aware of his own body in a way he didn’t like--how
close she was, how her shoulder pressed against him, how her breath
warmed his sleeve.
Trish didn’t look at him. She didn’t
look at Sam. When her eyes opened wider for a second, they stared at
the ground like the ground was safer than faces.
Kyle remembered the bandits looking at
her after the blast. Not with fear. With something else. The kind of
attention that sticks.
Hours passed in gray, rain-measured
time.
They reached the business park drenched
through to skin. The streets here were wider, designed for delivery
trucks and commuter flow. Cars and a few trucks sat abandoned, but
the density was lower than the residential streets. The End had come
on a weekend; most people had been home. The emptiness here had a
different flavor--less panic, more abandonment.
Office buildings rose in blunt
rectangles. Warehouse doors gaped. Many first-floor entrances had
been pried open, frames splintered, glass shattered. Kyle saw
evidence of looting in upper floors too--broken windows, curtains
hanging like torn skin, dark stains that could have been fire residue
or something worse.
Burned-out shells marked places where
fires had gutted structures, leaving skeletal beams and the stink of
old smoke that rain hadn’t managed to wash away.
Sam moved like she’d done this a
hundred times--eyes tracking corners, posture calm, her hand close to
where the pistol sat tucked behind her belt. She didn’t draw it,
but the readiness was visible in the way her elbow stayed slightly
away from her body.
They cut through an inner courtyard of a
short office building. The rain hammered concrete hard enough that it
sounded like a thousand small impacts. The air had cooled. Wet wind
threaded between buildings and into their soaked clothes.
Kyle’s teeth started to chatter.
Trish stumbled. Kyle caught her, and her
head lolled toward his shoulder.
“Shelter,” Sam said. “We need a
roof.”
Kyle’s headlamp strap was slick under
his fingers as he touched it--a nervous motion, as if the equipment
could promise safety.
Then he saw it. An unbroken entrance,
glass still in place, a cheerful sign above it: Meridian Early
Childhood Center, letters in playful colors that looked obscene
against the gray. The door beneath it was closed, and the lock had
not been forced.
Kyle tested the handle. It turned. He
pulled the door open and ushered them inside.
The lobby was cramped, decorated with
the remnants of a world that had believed in schedules and snack
time. Little chairs. A short receptionist desk. A bulletin board with
shredded paper still pinned to it. Everything had been tossed and
searched, the floor chaotic with plastic bins and paper and broken
toys.
Someone else had scavenged here, too.
Kyle sat on the floor near the front
door and eased Trish down beside him. She folded into the spot like
she’d been waiting all day for permission to stop. Her head dipped
forward, chin nearly to chest.
Sam wiped water from her eyes with the
heel of her hand. “Stay here,” she told Kyle. “I’ll check the
rest.”
Kyle’s throat tightened automatically.
The idea of being left alone with Trish made his pulse jump. His mind
immediately searched for excluses and the fact that Trish was Sam’s
friend and Kyle was… what? a complicating factor?--seemed like a
good one. In truth, Kyle just didn’t know Trish and didn’t know
how to handle her if she woke up and wanted conversation...or
reassurance...or...anything.
He started to protest. Started to say, I
should check. You should stay with her. The words jammed up,
caught between logic and social rules he still couldn’t always
interpret fast enough. Before he could speak, Sam pulled the pistol
from behind her back with a smooth, practiced motion. The metal
looked matte and indifferent in her wet hand.
Kyle fell quiet.
Sam disappeared into the building’s
dim interior.
The rain outside was a constant patter
against concrete and glass. It made the daycare feel like a sealed
box. Kyle listened hard for any other sound--footsteps, voices, the
click of a door--but heard only distant dripping and his own
breathing.
Trish mumbled something in her sleep. A
single word, slurred, not meant for him. Then she shifted. Her body
leaned sideways until her shoulder pressed into Kyle’s ribs. Her
head found his upper arm. The contact made Kyle’s spine tighten
hard, a physical cringe he couldn’t prevent. He stayed frozen,
terrified that if he moved she would wake and look at him and he’d
have to navigate whatever that meant. He was fairly sure her sleep
addled brain thought he was Sam.
Kyle’s mind ran through options:
gently shift her weight; slide out; put his backpack between them; do
nothing. Every option felt like it would be interpreted as
something.
Sam’s footsteps returned--soft,
controlled.
She appeared in the lobby doorway and
took in the scene in one glance: Trish asleep against Kyle, Kyle
rigid with discomfort, eyes flicking toward her like a trapped
animal.
Sam’s mouth twitched. Then she smiled
broadly, sudden and bright in a way that didn’t fit the gray day.
Her hand snapped up to cover her mouth as she turned her head,
shoulders shaking with silent laughter.
Kyle glowered at her, the expression
sharp enough that he felt it pulling his face into unfamiliar
territory.
Sam lowered her hand just enough to
whisper, “Oh my god.”
Kyle kept his voice low. “I wasn’t
sure how--”
“I know,” Sam said, still smiling.
“It’s just--” She waved a vague hand, as if the entire
situation had delivered a joke directly into her lap.
Kyle stared at her until the smile
softened.
Sam cleared her throat. The humor didn’t
leave her eyes, but the seriousness returned around it. “Place is
empty,” she said. “Dry. Mostly. Back rooms look better than this
mess.”
Kyle nodded, grateful for instructions
he could follow.
Together, they lifted Trish. She didn’t
fully wake, only made a small protest sound that died immediately.
Kyle’s arms shook with effort; Sam took more of the weight without
comment.
Kyle clicked on his headlamp. The light
was dim, more a suggestion than illumination, but it cut enough of a
path.
They moved through the main playroom:
foam floor tiles in bright puzzle colors, children-sized round tables
shoved to the walls, small plastic chairs piled like fallen confetti.
The place smelled faintly of old cleaner and damp mildew.
At the back, Sam pushed through a heavy
swinging door. A small kitchen waited beyond: fridge, counters,
cupboards gaped half-open where previous scavengers had searched. A
full range sat beneath an exhaust hood. The hood’s vent led out
into the rain.
Kyle felt a thin surge of relief at the
sight of something functional. They set Trish down in a clearer patch
of floor. Kyle moved debris aside, making room, while Sam shrugged
off her pack and pulled out folded aluminum flashing and a small tin
canister.
In minutes she had a small fire going on
the range under the hood--contained, controlled. The wind of the
storm drew enough air through the vent that the smoke didn’t pool
in the room. The heat was modest but real.
Kyle sat close enough to feel it on his
hands.
The rain outside didn’t let up. It
hammered the vent exhaust somewhere outside and reverberated inside
with a tin echo.
Kyle dug into his pack and produced
three pouches of packaged chicken. He handed them out. The smell made
Trish stir. For a few minutes she became more present--not fully
awake, but awake enough to eat. She kept her head down. She didn’t
meet Kyle’s eyes when he glanced at her. When Sam asked, “You
good?” Trish gave the smallest nod, chewing, eyes fixed on her
hands.
Kyle watched her anyway, trying to
interpret the quiet: shame, fear, exhaustion, all of it braided
together. Trish’s reluctance to look up felt like an apology she
didn’t know how to speak.
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Kyle didn’t know what to do with that.
He ate mechanically, the food bland and
salty, the texture rubbery. His body wanted calories more than his
mind wanted to taste.
When they finished, Trish’s energy
collapsed as quickly as it had surfaced. She eased back, laid her
head on her pack like it was a pillow, and within minutes her
breathing slowed into sleep again--deeper this time, the kind of
sleep that didn’t care who was watching.
Sam shifted closer to her without
thinking, a protective angle of body that made Kyle’s chest tighten
with something he didn’t name.
The small fire crackled in its tin
container. Outside, the rain kept pouring like the sky had forgotten
how to stop.
Kyle stared at the exhaust hood and
listened for thunder that never came, and tried not to imagine what
else might be moving under that gray blanket if this had been a
different kind of storm.
His mind kept rewinding the day in sharp
fragments, as if replaying would allow him to find the moment where
he could have changed something. The parking garage. The light. The
violence of it. The way the air had felt wrong just before it
happened--pressurized and charged.
And Trish--lying in the middle of it
with her face covered in the blood of a wound that had simply
vanished.
He’d said very little since they’d
eaten. Not because he had nothing to say. Because every sentence he
attempted formed and then collapsed, too small to contain what he
felt and too clumsy to land safely.
Sam hadn’t pushed him. She hadn’t
offered soothing words that would feel like lies. She’d only sat
near him, present, the way a person sits with a bleeding
wound--watchful and waiting.
Kyle’s gaze drifted from the fire to
the sleeping shape of Trish, then back. He rubbed his thumb over the
knuckle of his opposite hand until the skin blanched and returned.
The question had been sitting in him for
hours, growing weight.
He turned his head toward Sam, slowly,
as if speed might crack something.
“So,” he said, and his voice came
out rough, unused. “What was that today?” He swallowed once.
“With Trish and that...light?”
Sam didn’t answer immediately. Her
eyes remained on the coals. She took a breath that looked like it
hurt, the kind of inhalation you take before stepping into a cold
ocean.
Kyle watched her profile. In the
flicker, he caught the set of her jaw, the tension held there. He
recognized reluctance the way he recognized a locked door: not by
subtle emotional cues he might miss, but by the way everything about
her posture said while something deeper forced her to stay
in place anyway.
“You saw it,” she said finally,
voice low. Not defensive--controlled. “I don’t know what it is.”
“That doesn’t--” Kyle stopped
himself. The blunt version----would
land wrong. He tried again, more careful, because he understood he
was walking close to something fragile. “You’ve seen it before.”
Sam’s eyes shifted, not to him, but to
Trish. She looked at the sleeping woman for a long moment, as if
confirming she was still gone to the world.
“Yeah,” Sam said. “Once. Kind of.”
Kyle felt the word settle in
his stomach like a stone.
He waited. He forced himself not to fill
the silence with questions. He had learned, over years, that
sometimes silence was the only way to let other people choose to
speak. Even when it made his skin itch.
Sam’s fingers flexed once, then curled
again around nothing.
“It was after the End,” she said,
and there was a slight shift in her tone when she used the word, like
it had edges. The End was the marker between the last sane days and
the new reality of chaos and uncertainty. “Trish and I were
roommates. Same apartment when the wave hit.”
Kyle’s throat tightened. He pictured
it without wanting to: an apartment building shuddering, glass
exploding, the city outside turning into a violence you couldn’t
negotiate with. He had his own version of that day--his home with
Alice, watching her drive away with her small car stuffed with
everything she owned, and then the violet storm from the north.
Sam continued, voice steady in the way
of someone reciting a report because feeling it would drown her.
“Everything stopped working. The
outside of the building got messed up, but the rest of it was mostly
okay. We stayed home. Like everybody else. Waiting for...” She made
a small sound, almost a laugh, but it didn’t carry humor. “I
don’t even know what we thought we were waiting for.”
Kyle’s eyes drifted to the fire again.
He watched the small flame dance in the air pulled up through the
exhaust vent.
“A week later,” Sam said, “we
heard engines. Nothing had worked for days and then the sound of
engines. Big. We went to the window and saw flatbed trucks coming
down the street. Old ones. Army surplus or something. No electronics.
Just...metal and fuel.”
Kyle imagined the sound: heavy engines
in a dead city, the shock of hearing coordinated movement again. He
felt a brief, sick envy for those earlier days when people still
believed organized help might exist.
“The marines got out,” Sam went on.
“There were tons of them. Uniforms. Guns. All of it. And one of
them had this hand-cranked siren.” She mimed the motion with her
hand, a small circular twist. “He wound it up and it screamed. Like
an air raid siren from old movies.”
Kyle’s skin prickled at the image--the
sound dragging survivors out to windows the way movement draws
interest.
Sam’s gaze stayed distant, as if she
was watching it happen again.
“They ran it for like five minutes,”
she said. “Enough that anyone still around heard it. Then one of
their guys started shouting up at the buildings. Telling us what we
already knew--no civil order, no emergency response, no
communication. Then he said they had orders. Final orders, he said.
From Washington.” A pause. The words tasted strange in the world
they lived in now. “Hunker down. Consolidate. Shelter as many as
they could. They had a big box store turned into a shelter somewhere
south of us. Rationing. Protection. He said no one was forced, but
this was the chance because they didn’t have gas to do a bunch of
trips.”
Kyle’s mind supplied the missing
details: the crowd deciding whether to trust uniforms when the world
itself had proven it didn’t respect authority.
Sam’s mouth tightened.
“Trish and I argued,” she said. “Ten
minutes, maybe more. She didn’t want to go. She thought once we
went with them, we might not get out. She's always had trust issues
with guys.”
Kyle glanced at Trish’s sleeping face.
Even slack with exhaustion, there was a trace of that restlessness
Sam had described without meaning to: the way Trish had looked at him
earlier, assessing, guarding.
“But you did go,” Kyle said quietly.
Not a question.
Sam nodded once. “We’d run out of
food eventually. Water too. We decided to go and told ourselves we’d
bolt if anything got weird.”
Kyle felt his chest tighten at the
naivety of . To say that the whole world
had become "weird" would be an understatement.
Sam kept talking, the story coming in
blocks, each one placed carefully as if she was stacking weight.
“We got on the flatbed with other
people. It crawled around for hours--stopping, loading more people.
Took forever. When we finally got to the shelter, it was this gutted
warehouse. Used to be a store. You could see where stuff had
been--signage, fixtures, all ripped out and dumped outside. Inside,
it was just...beams and open space. Cots. Mats. Everyone had a plot
of floor.” Her eyes narrowed. “That’s what they called it. A
plot. Like we were crops.”
Kyle’s stomach rolled.
“There were families,” Sam said.
“Curtains people hung up for privacy. A section in the back blocked
off for ‘military only.’ Not even blocked off well. Just boxes
and debris. You could see right over it. The whole place was loud all
the time. Babies crying. People fighting. People praying. People
laughing like it was a party because everyone was just really scared
inside.”
Kyle’s hands clenched, then loosened
again. He forced his fingers to relax because he didn’t have
anywhere to put that tension.
Sam’s voice stayed even, but Kyle
heard the strain behind it. The way she was keeping herself from
naming certain things, circling them like a dog circles a body it
doesn’t want to approach.
“They started doing supply runs,”
she said after a moment. “Marines asked for volunteers. Scavenging
runs. They’d take some civilians along, mix the groups. Boredom was
part of it, I think. People wanted to feel useful, wanted to get out
of the chaos. Trish and I went together.”
Kyle pictured Sam in that world:
competent, procedural, using checklists in her mind because chaos
demanded structure. He could also picture Trish being restless,
drawn to the movement, the temporary adventure of leaving the
warehouse.
“For a while it was...survivable,”
Sam said. “Food. Water. Some protection. Then one day the marines
packed their gear, got on the trucks, and left.”
Kyle stared at her. “They left?”
“They left,” Sam said. Her tone
sharpened on the repetition. “No warning. No announcement. They
said their mission was done here and they had to go help another
area. They said they left people in charge and we needed to stick
together until relief arrived.”
Kyle almost laughed, but it caught in
his throat and became something worse. Relief. A word from a previous
civilization.
Sam’s eyes flicked toward him briefly,
then away.
“After that,” she said, “things
started changing. Small stuff at first. Resources didn’t feel
evenly split anymore. People ‘disappeared.’ Leaders said they
left voluntarily. But their stuff would be there. Clothes, bags,
shoes.” Her fingers dug into her knee. “The paranoia got worse.
Fights. Accusations. One group came back from a run accusing the
others of hiding supplies. Big fight. Next day, the accused people
were gone.”
Kyle’s skin felt too tight. He could
see it with sick clarity: a fragile human system turning predatory
the moment an external authority vanished.
Sam’s voice lowered, and Kyle felt the
temperature of the room change with it.
“Then there was a run,” she said.
“Big group. Halfway through, they split us to cover more ground.
Trish and I got separated before we could really object.”
Kyle’s pulse ticked hard in his neck.
Sam swallowed once.
“My group was me and four guys,” she
said. “They got quiet. Not searching much. Just walking. Putting
distance between us and everybody else.” Her eyes didn’t blink
for a few seconds. “We ended up in a mattress store. Ransacked
already. They said we were stopping to rest.”
Kyle’s hands were shaking slightly. He
pressed them against his thighs, trying to steady them.
“One of them, this stupid shaven head
guy named Theo, grabbed me,” Sam said, flat as stone. “Not
subtle. Just...walked up and tried to hold me still. Like I belonged
to him. I told him to stop. He didn’t. No one else was doing
anything so I slugged him. Hard. Then I kicked him in the balls.”
She exhaled. “The others laughed. Like it was entertainment. Like
the asshole didn't just try and rape me.”
Kyle felt something cold crawl up his
spine. His mind tried to assemble the scene into something distant
and manageable. It failed. His imagination was too vivid. The world
was too close.
Sam’s jaw clenched.
“I left,” she said. “I walked out.
Fast before anyone did anything else. I think they were just waiting
to see if I’d fight back.” She looked at the fire again, and for
the first time her voice cracked slightly. “And then I realized
Trish might be in the same situation.”
Kyle’s chest tightened to the point of
pain.
“What did you--” he started.
“I ran,” Sam cut in. “Loud.
Stupid. The troops had always told us to be as quiet as possible but
I didn’t care if it drew attention. I just ran the direction her
group went.”
Kyle watched her face. He could see the
memory sitting behind her eyes like a shadow pressed against glass.
“I was searching,” Sam said. “Trying
to figure out where they went. And then I heard this boom sound. Not
close. A few blocks. But...it was deep. Different.” Her fingers
twitched like they wanted to grip something. “I didn’t know if it
was her. Could’ve been anything. But it was all I had.”
Kyle barely breathed.
Sam’s gaze slid to Trish again.
“I found a house,” she said. “Front
wall was gone. Debris still falling from the roof. Dust in the air.”
She paused. “I didn’t call out. I just looked in.”
Kyle felt his stomach drop, as if he
already knew what she was going to say and couldn’t stop it.
“Trish was in a hole in the floor,”
Sam said quietly. “Unconscious. Two men were dead. One was thrown
across the room, broken in a way I can’t describe without...without
seeing it again.” A hard swallow. “The other...his face and chest
were crushed. Like something hit him with impossible force.”
Kyle’s vision blurred for a moment. He
blinked hard, forcing focus. His hands were numb.
“And Trish?” he managed.
“Unhurt,” Sam said. “Not even a
scratch I could see. Just out. Groggy when I got her up. Like she’d
been drained.” She took a breath and let it out slowly. “There
were bloody footprints leading out of the house. The third guy--he
was alive. He’d left minutes before I got there.”
Kyle’s heart hammered. He stared at
Trish, asleep, harmless-looking, and tried to reconcile it with the
image of a room turned into slaughter around her.
Sam continued, voice regaining its
steadiness, moving into decisions, because that was where she was
strongest.
“I knew if that guy got back and
started talking about what happened,” she said, “people would
come looking. And the shelter had been...changing. I didn’t trust
it. I didn’t trust anyone there anymore. So I hid Trish in the
neighborhood, went back after dark, packed our stuff, and left.”
Kyle’s mouth opened, but nothing came
out. He felt like the air was thick, like the rain outside had seeped
into his lungs.
After a long moment, he forced sound
into his throat.
“She doesn’t remember,” he said.
It came out as a statement, but he wasn’t sure.
Sam shook her head once. “Not much.
She remembers they attacked her. She remembers being afraid. Then
it’s blank.”
Kyle’s eyes flicked to Sam. “And the
boom.”
“I didn’t see it,” Sam said. “I
only heard it. But...it didn’t look like a normal explosion. The
damage was centered around her, like the floor itself had been
punched out.” She glanced at the fire as if it might answer. “It
wasn’t as big as today, I don't think.”
Kyle heard the rain intensify briefly, a
heavier wave against the building.
Sam’s expression tightened. “And
she’s been out longer than she was then,” she added. “So
something might be changing.”
Kyle stared at Trish for a long moment.
Her face was slack with exhaustion, lashes dark against her cheek. If
she had the ability to do what Sam described, it didn’t show in
sleep. She looked like any other tired person in a world that
specialized in exhausting people.
He swallowed against the ache in his
throat.
“I don’t think she likes me,” he
said, because the thought had been gnawing at him, and naming it felt
like testing it for truth.
Sam’s mouth twitched. For the first
time in the conversation, something like amusement surfaced--not joy,
not lightness, but the brief relief of a human reaction that wasn’t
fear.
She gave a small, breathy laugh. “Yeah,”
she said. “She’s not exactly rolling out the welcome mat.”
Kyle didn’t smile. He couldn’t find
the muscles for it.
“She had to deal with me after...us,”
Sam said, and the word landed between them like a dropped object. Her
eyes met his then, direct and unflinching. “She’s a good person.
Just kinda protective.”
Kyle felt guilt rise fast, familiar and
sharp. Images flashed--Alice’s face, the end of his own previous
life, the betrayal that had felt abstract until it became real
consequences. He looked away, because looking at Sam while that guilt
lived in him felt like exposing something raw.
“I think she’ll warm up,” Sam
added. “If she gets to know you.”
Kyle’s throat tightened. He turned
back to Sam. He tried to form the sentence he’d been
carrying--something about what they were, what they had been, what it
meant now that they were trapped together in this ruined world again.
His mouth opened but Sam’s arm shot
up. One finger lifted between them--sharp, decisive. A stop sign made
of flesh.
“No,” she said curtly. “Not right
now. No.” Her voice strained on the edges, like she was holding
something back with force. “Shit’s already crazy.
Let’s...just...sleep.”
Kyle closed his mouth. The words he
hadn’t said tasted bitter behind his teeth.
A pained look moved across Sam’s
face--quick, almost involuntary--then she steadied herself again.
“I’m not saying never,” she said,
quieter. “Just...not now.”
Kyle tried to smile. It came out weak, a
shape without warmth.
He nodded once.
Sam lowered her hand. She looked at him
for several long seconds, her eyes uncertain in a way that didn’t
match her earlier steadiness. Then she shifted across the floor to
Trish and lay down beside her, turning onto her side with her back to
Kyle.
It wasn’t theatrical. It wasn’t a
rejection meant to punish him. It was a retreat, simple and
necessary. Kyle watched the line of her shoulders in the dim
firelight. Her breathing slowed gradually, becoming regular. The fire
hissed softly. Rain continued to batter the building.
His mind continued to spin with
thoughts. He replayed Sam’s story until it felt like it was branded
onto the inside of his skull. He replayed her raised finger. He
replayed the word . He tried to interpret what her refusal
meant. Was it just timing? Practicality? Or was it something
worse--something final, a decision made long before today that she
wasn’t yet ready to revisit?
Kyle had always been good at systems.
Give him inputs, constraints, failure modes, and he could build a
plan. Emotions didn’t behave like that. They hid variables. They
changed rules midstream. They punished you for being literal.
He stared at Sam’s back and felt the
old fear creep in: not fear of monsters or storms or hungry
strangers, but fear of meaning. Fear that he had broken something
years ago and the world was now forcing him to live inside the break.
The fire dwindled. The light softened.
Kyle’s thoughts kept moving anyway,
faster now, jittery. He needed space. He needed to be away from the
sleeping shapes behind him so his mind could stop trying to solve
them like puzzles.
Carefully, he stood. His joints
protested in small, sharp aches. He moved with slow precision,
stepping around the blankets where Trish lay, giving Sam a wide
berth. Neither woman stirred. He grabbed his pack and pulled the
headlamp from it, fingers familiar with the straps. He clicked it on,
then immediately angled it down to avoid flashing them awake. The
beam cut a pale line across the kitchenette tiles as he slipped out.
The main playroom opened around
him--tiny chairs, low tables, bins of toys half spilled and
forgotten. The rain sound was louder out here, less dampened by the
kitchenette walls. He stood still for a moment, listening for
anything that didn’t belong--footsteps, breathing that wasn’t
theirs, the subtle scrape of someone shifting weight in the dark.
Nothing.
He moved to the third door he hadn’t
checked earlier. The handle was sticky with age and grime. He turned
it, opened it a few inches, and swept his headlamp beam inside. A
small restroom. One room, tiled, with a single toilet, a small sink,
and a mirror that caught his light and threw it back into his eyes.
For a second his own reflection looked like a stranger--tired face,
hollowed cheeks, hair too long. He shut the door gently.
No back exit. No service corridor. Just
the building’s front, the lobby, the doors that faced the street
and the rain.
Kyle drifted back through the playroom
and into the lobby. The front windows were wide here, designed to
reassure parents in a normal world. Now they only exposed them.
He righted an adult-sized chair that had
been knocked onto its side and dropped into it, letting his exhausted
frame sag. The headlamp clicked off, and darkness rushed in--except
for the gray light filtering through the rain-blurred window.
Outside, the downpour turned the world
into moving water. Streetlights didn’t exist anymore, but the day
still had its own dim illumination, the kind that made everything
look washed out and cold.
Kyle stared out at it, unmoving, and
felt the weight of what Sam had told him settle deeper.
Trish another impossible thing that
existed in a new world of an increasing number of impossible things.
Sam didn’t want to talk about the past, and Kyle couldn’t tell if
that was mercy or avoidance or something like disgust.
And the rain kept falling, steady and
indifferent, as if it could wash the whole world clean if it just
kept at it long enough. Kyle sat alone in the lobby and watched it
pour.

