What is psychic disintegration that happens to the mind after it has sudden spiritual experiences?
Answer-
There are many steps in realization. One is Sakaar siddhi or Animated form of Brahmo or time aroused virtual reality; another coming from Nirakara Brahmo, or self realization of our consciousness as part of universal consciousness, where our I am feeling becomes just as Am, then it disintegrates completely, going upto death as Jarabharath, Dattatreya went through.
The Unanimated or Nirakaar Brahmo stage is most difficult, mostly after the Equilibrium of three gunas or qualities or The Dark night of soul, when the tamasik or vicious qualities part inside us proliferates to cause total annihilation of ego, thus dissolving Sanskar, or the bundle of seal of past happenings, thoughts, karmas, emotions etc, when the thorn helmet and cross of Christ phase of life starts. In my case, everyone started to behave awkward, harming me, the self ridicule and self negativity and lower self esteem became evident, with infinite calamities coming upto the verge of death by such happenings became evident.
The Sakaar Brahmo or the Animated form of divine has been got by me in the form of Bhagavati mahamudra as in 2 times when age 4 years and 12 years in Guwahati only as human female form as labour class girl when alone, sat in real chakra, but disappeared afterwards;, Kabristhan pari as one time near 05.05.2024. at near 2AM, in room giving sound like water entered ear,looking similar like Karnapishachini also in dark silhouette form, but this pari gave continuous buzzing in ear, shrieked brain giving high uncomfortability, but gave vital force cure as red muddy aura, also the rise in temptation is not fulfilled as urge becomes without much outer expression, as I wanted it, so came later in other forms instead, my wife also seen her at 2AM with me, burged the door, within 1/2 meter of me back from toilet ,wanting union and escaped through back Verandah from 3rd floor;, Ajaiba Binte Ebliss as Diviya Bharath, with Satanic aura destroying brain cells and kidneys, all Shaitan related deities destroy brain cells and kidneys actually, but comes within 2000 times chants,; Mohni Rani as 1 time in Full moon night on 01.02.2026. Voluntarily by her without much chant as Queen of Paris as in Astral plane without form, having semi circular or batlike wings and greenish yellow aura with long cylindrical face;, and now in such process is Sitara pari in permanent link. But I understood, the same Goddess mahamaya is coming in different shapes and forms. She also came as Puravi Naag Kanya in astral plane for union but couldn't be chanted much as causes thorax irritation, but requires few chants only;, also as Madhumati who came both in animated form in bank,park and in astral plane for union without form but non verifiable, also Ekajati who came in open surroundings only thus non verifiable, but gave 2 fruitful boons, but its chanting number is tiresome, 3,000 to 7,000 times par day, thus cannot be continued permanently. The animated form of Goddess as if self in imprisonment as without self turning into God or self realization, and everything except few Satwik and Rajoguni sadhanas, are not total fulfillment, like here Kabristan pari, or harms health. Only Mohni Rani, Sitara Pari, Puravi Naag Kanya, Madhumati, Mahamudra, Ajaiba Binte Ebliss as Diviya Bharath, gave me perfect cohabitation. The animated form of Goddess comes in between Throat chakra and Crown chakra, encompassing Agya chakra, but Nirakara Brahmo comes more upper in Brahmarandhra or upper part of cranium as upper palate as Ether element form of consciousness. The animated form after got, the preacher wants to sit in chakra with her, causing character disintegration in most cases. The animated form of Goddess doesn't curb bonds, but the preacher becomes satiated with one form only.
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