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We’re All Just Trying to Stay

  Part 1: The Morning After.

  The morning was ordinary. Too ordinary.

  A breeze from the half-open window stirred the curtain. A kettle clicked off on the stove. Somewhere in the distance, a delivery truck reversed with a long beep-beep-beep that echoed down the street.

  Rin sat at the kitchen table, hunched over a bowl of cereal she wasn’t eating. Aurenya sat across from her, quietly slicing an apple with unearthly precision. The slices were perfect. Paper thin. Stacked like glass petals in her palm.

  Neither of them spoke.

  They didn’t have to.

  Last night was still there, humming underneath the silence. It wasn’t fear or tension exactly — just a shared awareness. They had crossed a threshold, and now everything had a different weight.

  “You didn’t sleep,” Aurenya said quietly.

  Rin blinked. “Neither did you.”

  Aurenya offered the apple slices. Rin took one, hesitated, and bit.

  Silence again. Not awkward. Just full.

  Footsteps thudded from down the hall.

  A door opened.

  Mika’s voice floated out, half-yawn: “If there’s no coffee I’m dropping out of life.”

  She shuffled into the kitchen, messy-haired and hoodie-swaddled, then froze.

  Her eyes drifted from Rin in pyjamas… to Aurenya at the table… to the plate of fruit between them.

  She squinted.

  Rin offered a casual “Morning.”

  Mika blinked again.

  “You’re both awake. At the same time. Without me yelling.”

  Aurenya said nothing.

  Mika narrowed her eyes. “Okay. What happened?”

  “Nothing,” Rin said a little too quickly.

  Mika turned to Aurenya. “You always up this early?”

  Aurenya nodded. “Sometimes earlier.”

  “Creepy,” Mika muttered, heading toward the fridge. “I mean… not creepy, just… suspiciously wholesome.”

  Rin gave Aurenya a subtle look.

  Aurenya, thankfully, said nothing.

  Ten minutes later, Mika had taken the couch hostage with her coffee and a crime podcast blaring from her earbuds. Rin stood at the sink washing dishes she hadn’t used. Aurenya leaned against the wall, arms folded.

  “I think she knows something’s off,” Rin said under her breath.

  “I think she already thought that,” Aurenya replied.

  Rin looked over at her.

  “You’re being… normal,” she said quietly. “I mean. After everything.”

  Aurenya tilted her head. “Do you want me to act different?”

  “No,” Rin said, too quickly.

  Then: “I just don’t know how to be around you yet.”

  Aurenya gave the smallest smile. “That’s okay. I don’t really know how to be around me either.”

  A knock came at the door.

  Loud. Too loud.

  Rin frowned. “Oh no.”

  Mika yanked one earbud out. “Did anyone order chaos?”

  “I didn’t tell her to come,” Rin said.

  Aurenya blinked. “Who?”

  The door burst open before anyone reached it.

  Suzu stumbled in wearing two different shoes, holding a bag of bakery pastries and a broken umbrella.

  “Your intercom’s busted and I’m dying,” she announced. “One of you hydrate me or I’ll haunt this apartment as a beautiful goblin.”

  She tripped slightly over her own feet and dumped the bag of food onto the kitchen counter with a heroic gasp.

  Then she noticed everyone staring.

  “What?” Suzu said. “I bring you flaky carbs and this is the thanks I get?”

  Mika just pointed at the umbrella. “Did it… break you?”

  “It betrayed me,” Suzu whispered, solemnly. Then, beaming at Aurenya: “You look way too composed for this hour. Are you secretly a vampire?”

  A silence dropped like a stone.

  Aurenya blinked.

  Mika laughed once. “God, Suzu, don’t say weird stuff like that.”

  “I’m not wrong,” Suzu said. “Girl’s got ‘elegant immortal tragic backstory’ written all over her.”

  Rin met Aurenya’s eyes.

  For just a moment, Aurenya looked like she might speak.

  But instead she turned, gracefully, and began making tea for Suzu.

  Interlude: Suzu, Croissants, and Casual Emotional Anarchy.

  The kettle hissed again. Suzu sat on the floor now, cross-legged, as though chairs were beneath her dignity. Aurenya handed her a cup of tea.

  “Thanks, mystery girl,” Suzu said, taking it with two hands like she was in a samurai film. “You’re either a ninja or a ghost. There’s no in-between.”

  “I’m neither,” Aurenya said, deadpan.

  Suzu narrowed her eyes. “Suspiciously specific denial.”

  Mika sat on the edge of the armrest, sipping her coffee like a tired queen watching clowns perform.

  Rin sat at the table, torn between groaning and laughing.

  “What brings you here, Suzu?” Rin finally asked.

  Suzu took a dramatic sip of tea. “My apartment is haunted by regret and lukewarm ambitions.”

  “That’s not new,” Mika muttered.

  “And I missed you guys,” Suzu added, brightening. “Also I had a dream where I was marrying a croissant and it told me to visit.”

  “You’re seriously not okay,” Rin said, shaking her head.

  “I brought pastries, didn’t I?” Suzu grabbed a flaky triangle and waved it. “That’s basically affection in edible form.”

  She turned to Aurenya again.

  “So. Vampire.”

  Aurenya blinked. “You keep saying that.”

  “You keep not denying it hard enough,” Suzu said cheerfully, mouth half full of pastry. “Which means I’m right.”

  “I don’t drink blood,” Aurenya said.

  Rin choked slightly on her tea.

  Mika glanced over, frowning.

  Suzu beamed. “See? She didn’t say ‘I’m not a vampire.’ She just said she doesn’t currently drink blood. Queen behaviour.”

  “I think you’re actually unhinged,” Mika muttered.

  “I’m emotionally modular,” Suzu replied. “Very in right now.”

  Later, as the four of them sprawled around the tiny apartment in semi-waking domestic chaos, a calm started to settle over the space.

  It was the rarest kind of peace — accidental peace.

  The kind that only exists when no one’s pretending, no one’s performing, and everyone’s just a little too tired to keep up the usual walls.

  Rin leaned her head back against the chair, watching Aurenya pour a second cup of tea for Suzu — even though Suzu had forgotten her first and was currently talking about cursed vending machines in the school courtyard.

  Mika half-listened, arms crossed, but her eyes kept flicking toward Rin.

  Aurenya said nothing, but glanced at Rin once — just once — and that was enough.

  Part 2: Mika’s Doubt.

  The apartment felt hollow after Suzu left — like the chaos she brought had expanded the space somehow, and now it rang a little too quiet.

  Crumbs trailed from the kitchen to the couch. Mika had one leg tucked beneath her, scrolling through something half-heartedly on her phone. Rin was rinsing mugs she didn’t remember drinking from. Aurenya sat again at the table, flipping slowly through the pages of an old paperback she hadn’t actually started reading.

  They weren’t ignoring each other.

  They were just… full. Of thoughts. Of things unsaid.

  Mika looked up from her screen and studied Rin.

  “You okay?” she asked, voice casual.

  “Yeah,” Rin said without looking up. “Why?”

  Mika shrugged. “You’ve been kinda quiet lately.”

  Rin paused, then resumed scrubbing a stubborn bit of tea stain from a cup.

  “I’m just tired,” she said.

  Mika gave a short hum.

  She didn’t push — not yet.

  Later, Aurenya disappeared down the hallway to retrieve something from the guest room.

  Mika saw her chance.

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  She leaned against the kitchen doorway, arms crossed.

  “So,” she said, voice low. “You and our resident sleepwalker. Getting pretty close.”

  Rin turned from the cupboard. “What?”

  “I’m not judging,” Mika said quickly. “I’m just… noticing. She’s been different lately. So have you.”

  Rin frowned. “You’re reading into things.”

  “I’m really not,” Mika said. “You’ve been acting strange. And she’s been quieter than usual. Not quiet like before — quiet like… she knows something you don’t want to talk about.”

  Rin’s grip on the mug tightened slightly.

  Mika took a step forward, lowering her voice.

  “Rin… did something happen?”

  There it was.

  The question Rin had been bracing for all day. She swallowed. Her eyes flicked to the hallway — empty, quiet.

  Mika stepped closer still.

  “I’m not trying to interfere,” she said. “But I care about you. If something’s wrong, I need to know.”

  Rin opened her mouth.

  Closed it.

  The truth hovered just behind her teeth — warm, wild, too big for the room.

  But then she smiled, small and practiced.

  “There’s nothing wrong.”

  Mika’s expression didn’t change immediately.

  But something behind her eyes dimmed.

  She nodded once. Slowly. “Okay.”

  Then she turned, walking away.

  Around the corner, just out of sight, Aurenya stood with her hand on the wall.

  She had heard everything.

  She didn’t move.

  She didn’t make a sound.

  After a long pause, she walked silently back to her room and closed the door behind her.

  Mika sat down on the couch again. She stared at her phone, not reading.

  Rin stood at the sink, holding the same mug, the water still running.

  In the guest room, Aurenya sat at her desk.

  She opened her journal.

  Held her pen above the page.

  And then gently closed the book without writing a word.

  Part 3: Aurenya’s First Real Test.

  The kettle was cold. The guest room was empty.

  Mika stood in the middle of the apartment, arms folded, tapping her foot in a rhythm that didn’t match anything else in the room.

  “She’s gone,” she said flatly.

  Rin looked up from her phone. “What?”

  “Aurenya,” Mika said. “Not in her room. Not in the kitchen. Not on the balcony. She’s not here.”

  Rin tried not to let her heart jump.

  “She probably just went out.”

  Mika raised an eyebrow. “Since when does she just… go out?”

  “She’s allowed to,” Rin said, sharper than she meant.

  Mika blinked at her. “I didn’t say she wasn’t. I said it’s weird. Which it is. Come on, Rin. You seriously think this isn’t… off?”

  Rin’s jaw tensed. “Maybe she just needed air.”

  Mika studied her a moment longer. Then, quietly: “Yeah. Maybe.”

  She walked away.

  Rin stayed seated, eyes on the door.

  Aurenya moved through the city like a shadow that hadn’t quite caught up to the light.

  She didn’t walk aimlessly this time. She walked with purpose — though she couldn’t have said what that purpose was. Only that she needed to feel the world under her feet without someone watching. Without someone hoping.

  The crowds were thinning as late afternoon stretched toward evening. The sky was pale gold, dusted with clouds. People passed by in jackets and headphones, laughing or arguing or lost in themselves.

  But Aurenya could hear too much.

  The girl at the corner had a headache — sharp, rhythmic behind her eyes.

  The man near the bus stop was lying to someone on the phone. About where he was. About who he was with.

  The old woman walking past her smelled like grief, worn soft by time but still there.

  Aurenya’s skin prickled. Her hands trembled.

  She kept walking faster.

  By the time she turned off the main road, her breath was shallow. Her fingers buzzed. The world felt loud and far away at the same time.

  She found a small side street — mostly empty. A laundromat. A shuttered bookstore. A shop window with a faded "For Lease" sign.

  She sat on a bench nearby, fingers pressed to her temples.

  “Calm,” she whispered.

  Nothing answered.

  She looked up. The shop window caught her reflection.

  And for a long, terrible second — it wasn’t her.

  It was the other her. The one Rin had seen.

  The older version. Tall. Pale. Crimson eyes like garnets under glass. Fangs just barely visible behind parted lips.

  She wasn’t snarling. She wasn’t cruel.

  She was watching.

  Aurenya blinked.

  The reflection blinked with her.

  The moment passed.

  She sat back, exhaled, tried to ignore the pulse behind her eyes.

  She pulled out her journal.

  It wasn’t the soft paper diary she used at home — this one was different. Leather-bound. Tighter. It felt more like a field log than a place for dreams.

  She opened to a blank page.

  And began to write.

  4:41pm – visual distortion in reflection. 3 seconds. No witnesses.

  4:45pm – sound clarity spike. Overheard lies from two blocks away. Possible auditory filtering failure.

  4:47pm – emotional contamination. Possible projection? Unclear origin. Residual empathy effects?

  She hesitated.

  Then, on a new line:

  I think I used to know how to contain this.

  But I can’t remember if it was meant to be contained at all.

  She closed the book slowly, eyes drifting to the street again.

  People passed. No one saw her.

  Across town — not far, just out of reach — Rin walked past the very corner she’d once met Aurenya at.

  She paused at a crosswalk. Looked down the street.

  Felt… something.

  Nothing visible. Nothing explainable.

  Just a flutter under her skin — like a memory that hadn’t happened yet.

  She shook her head and crossed.

  Late Evening – Rin’s Room

  Rin sat on the edge of her bed, elbows on her knees, phone resting in her hands but screen dim.

  Aurenya had returned not long ago.

  She hadn’t said where she’d been. Rin hadn’t asked.

  And that silence — that was the part eating at her now.

  She stared at the blank screen like it might unlock if she just willed it hard enough. But all it showed was her own faint reflection in the black.

  Tired eyes. A mess of thoughts behind them.

  She hadn’t wanted to lie to Mika.

  But she also hadn’t known how to tell the truth.

  Not the real truth.

  Not the kind with crimson eyes and blood and trembling hands.

  How do you explain that someone who scares you — should scare you — is also someone you feel safest with?

  How do you explain that your heart is still grieving someone else, but keeps reaching forward anyway?

  She closed her eyes and leaned her forehead into her palm.

  Quiet.

  Still.

  Then — a soft knock.

  She looked up. “Yeah?”

  Aurenya’s voice, muffled through the door: “I made tea. If you want any.”

  Rin didn’t answer for a beat.

  Then: “Okay.”

  She stood. Smoothed her shirt. Ran a hand through her hair.

  When she opened the door, Aurenya was already halfway down the hall, back toward the kitchen. No pressure. No questions.

  Just that same stillness Rin had seen in the alley, and in the glass.

  Part 4: The Stirring at School.

  The hallway buzzed with the sound of a hundred different conversations, shoes squeaking on polished linoleum, lockers clanging like dull percussion. School had resumed like nothing in the world was unravelling anywhere. Like time had always marched on like this.

  Rin walked through it all, feeling slightly underwater.

  Aurenya was just ahead of her, moving like she didn’t belong in any of it — too quiet, too still, a half-step out of sync with everything. She didn’t look around. She didn’t seem confused. Just… watching. Absorbing.

  Mika leaned against the lockers near the classroom door, earbuds tucked loosely into her collar, a coffee in one hand.

  Her eyes flicked to Aurenya. Then to Rin.

  “Morning,” she said, like a test.

  Rin gave a nod. “Hey.”

  Mika let the silence stretch just long enough to sting, then turned and walked into the room ahead of them.

  Homeroom was nothing special — announcements, low conversation, someone half-asleep in the back row. The usual.

  Except for Suzu.

  She was halfway under her desk for no clear reason, mumbling something about having dropped “a highly personal almond.”

  The teacher barely blinked anymore.

  “Please stay seated, Suzu.”

  “I am seated,” came the reply from under the desk. “Just in a metaphysical sense.”

  A few students snorted.

  Rin exhaled through her nose — a reluctant smile.

  Aurenya, at her desk by the window, tilted her head just slightly toward the chaos.

  And Suzu, with perfect timing, resurfaced just as the boy two rows over made his crack:

  “Man, if I see one more pale girl in a black coat staring into the void like she’s reading minds, I’m out. It’s giving vampire.”

  Scattered laughter.

  Rin froze.

  Aurenya didn’t move, but something about her seemed… stiller.

  Then Suzu, without missing a beat, turned to the boy and whispered loudly, “Yeah, careful. They say the pale ones drink annoying first.”

  A louder laugh this time — the boy flushed, annoyed.

  Aurenya’s lip twitched. Almost a smile.

  Mika, two seats back, saw everything — Rin’s reaction. The glance toward Aurenya. The flicker in her own expression.

  She stored it quietly.

  After class, the three trickled into the hallway together. Not as a group. Just caught in the same stream of bodies and noise.

  Suzu vanished somewhere near the vending machines, muttering about a juice conspiracy.

  Mika stepped into pace beside Rin.

  “You want to hang out after school?” she asked, not quite casually.

  Rin hesitated. “I told Aurenya I’d walk home with her.”

  Mika’s jaw ticked — barely.

  “You’ve been with her a lot lately,” she said.

  Rin looked at her. No sharpness in her voice, but something steadier than usual.

  “She needed help,” Rin said. “I help people when they need it. I helped you too — remember?”

  Mika blinked.

  That hit. Not cruelly — just truthfully.

  She nodded once. “Yeah. You did.”

  They walked in silence for a few steps before parting.

  The city air was cooler when Rin and Aurenya stepped off campus. Autumn was starting to lean harder into the wind.

  They didn’t talk at first.

  Then Aurenya slowed suddenly — not alarmed, but alert.

  She turned her head slightly, eyes narrowing at something across the street.

  Rin followed her gaze. Just people — laughing, walking, bags in hand.

  “What is it?” Rin asked.

  Aurenya didn’t answer immediately.

  Then: “There are too many feelings in places like this. I don’t know which ones are mine.”

  Rin didn’t speak. She just walked beside her, quietly.

  As they turned onto a quieter street, the light dimmed between buildings.

  Aurenya walked slightly ahead.

  Rin watched her back — the set of her shoulders, the way her head tilted at every sudden movement or sound, like a creature half-wild.

  Her hand twitched at her side.

  She didn’t reach out.

  But she wanted to.

  Part 5: Aurenya’s Fracture.

  Aurenya said she needed air.

  Rin had offered to go with her — not to follow, not to hover. Just to be there.

  But Aurenya had shaken her head.

  “I’ll be back soon,” she said. “I promise.”

  She smiled when she said it.

  But Rin didn’t like the way her hands trembled at her sides, or the fact that she was smiling too much. Like she was trying to remember how.

  Rin watched her leave, coat drawn tight around her, hair loose and strange in the wind.

  Then the door closed, and Rin was alone.

  Aurenya walked with her head down, breath shallow, footsteps soft against the city pavement. The street was quiet — just late enough to feel still, just early enough to feel unsafe.

  She hadn’t fed since that night in the alley.

  She didn’t want to again. Not like that.

  The rush of strength… it had felt good. Too good. Like waking up from a sleep she hadn’t known she was trapped in. And that was what terrified her most.

  The part of her that wanted more of it.

  She ducked into an alley not far from school — the shortcut students took when running late or skipping lunch. She didn’t know why she chose it.

  Her hand brushed the wall as she walked. The brick felt alive under her palm. Too alive.

  And then — without warning — the world tilted.

  It started small.

  A flicker of light in the alley bulb above her. A crackle of electricity.

  Then pain. Sharp, hot, searing through her chest like a spike. Not physical — not exactly. More like her blood was screaming.

  She stumbled. Dropped to her knees.

  Her breath came fast and shallow. Her fingers scraped the concrete.

  And then — the air warped.

  A pulse of energy burst from her like a silent scream. The glass window nearby shattered inward, spidering out with a soundless ripple.

  Her eyes burned.

  Crimson flared in her vision.

  The world shifted.

  For a moment — just one breathless second — she was almost changed.

  Older. Taller. Shadows gathering under her skin like they belonged there.

  But she didn’t finish transforming.

  The change collapsed in on itself — like a wave that rose too high and broke wrong.

  She fell backward.

  Unconscious.

  The dream came immediately.

  A woman’s voice.

  Calling a name. Not Aurenya. But close. Familiar in her bones.

  Blood. On white stone.

  And a sky that cracked with golden fire — not sun, not lightning — something worse.

  A hand reached out to her.

  She grabbed it.

  And woke up gasping.

  She was cold.

  Slumped against the alley wall. Hands scraped. Vision blurred.

  Then — someone knelt in front of her.

  “Rin…?”

  Rin’s face was drawn tight with worry, her coat pulled halfway around Aurenya’s shoulders already. “You said you’d be back soon,” she whispered. “You lied.”

  “I didn’t mean to—” Aurenya tried to sit up, wincing.

  “You don’t have to lie about pain,” Rin said. “You don’t have to carry this alone.”

  Aurenya looked at her. So close. So real. Her chest ached in a different way now.

  “I didn’t want you to see me like that.”

  Rin’s voice was gentle, but firm. “Then stop trying to be something you’re not.”

  They sat in silence for a long time.

  The wind pushed bits of paper through the alley. Somewhere far off, traffic hummed. A plane passed overhead, distant as a memory.

  And then Aurenya looked down at her wrist.

  She blinked.

  A mark was there — faint, silver, glowing under her skin like a scar that had never fully healed.

  It shimmered. Shifted.

  Not a letter. Not a symbol.

  A reminder.

  “What is that?” Rin whispered.

  Aurenya touched it with trembling fingers. “This is from… before.”

  “You remember?”

  “No,” Aurenya said slowly. “But something does.”

  They said nothing more.

  Rin helped her up.

  Aurenya leaned on her, silent, ashamed, and grateful all at once.

  The mark on her wrist glowed softly beneath her sleeve.

  It pulsed — like a heartbeat trying to return.

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